dedicated to Jiji, adik Faez.

babe, i soooooo love you too. and thanks for the blog post. terharu jugak i baca. there's a lot of things jugak that you've done for me. for starters, without you, Faez and I wouldn't have known each other. so, that was an ENORMOUS help :D entah macam mana lah i nk re-pay you. need me to hook you up with someone jugak ke? haha.

and since i don't have a younger sister, you've always been the younger sis figure for me. and i like it. because you're not bratty. well, at least not with me. tktau la dgn orang lain mcm mana kann :P so, that's why i love you.

as you already know, i'm always here for you. well yes, kadang kadang kat perlis but whatever. sama je. you can still reach me. wherever, whenever. i promise :D

and ehemm, ehemm. what's this about a Bf of yours? wahhh. mentang mentang lah i'm all the way up north, dh tknk update ke? haha. tkpe. up to you. and honestly, i still don't like Amelia. she still appears as a backstabber to me. but well, you know her better than i do, so the choise is yours. it's just, the name Amelia tu sounds evil, don't you think? *tk sedar diri* actually, there's thousands and millions and gazillions and other terms of big quantities that i don't know of reasons why i love you. but shit, i can't write them all here. but i know, memang i love you.

i wish we meet as often as we talk.

HAHA. okay, so in conclusion,

I Love You

and if i can choose, i wouldn't want any other girl to be a younger sis of mine.

So glad I have you,

Mia J :x

siapa cakap?

i miss college. haha. ye, memang. benda ni benda paling pelik dan bodoh korang pernah dengar.

eh, tapi serious ohh. daripada duduk rumah mcmni, tk buat pape. baik masuk college balik. ulang alik pegi class lagi best daripada camni. duduk melangut tk buat pape.

nak keluar pun mcm bosan. tkde kawan :( pathetic gila kan? yelaa, kawan kawan semua kat college sendiri, tk pun ada hal masing masing now. and yes, most of the "hal masing masing" is "bf/gf masing masing".

UGHH.

siapa la budak KL kat KMP yg otak geliga sangat cakap "balik KL lg best wehh" and "KL best ohh, ko tk caye, cuba ko try jalan KL"

oh righttttt. mamat gebang tu! there's this accounts dude. sebenarnya kitorang tk sure pun dia ni from KL or not. tp gaya dia, and kegebangan dia tu ada la mcm ala-ala KL-ian cmtu. dia kalau dh bukak cerita dlm cafe tu, perghhh. satu cafe tu akan dimaklumkan dengan cerita dia tu. cerita dia nk pegi Penang during the weekends. siap dengan nk sewa chalet apa pun, everybody will know. entah apa tah motif dia nk bgtau semua orang tah. so, my roommates and i always call him Budak KL Gebang. until one day, Shaz told me that the dude is her cousin! :O

Shaz isn't a classmate of mine, neither a roommate. she is a friend of my classmate. so, secara tk langsung, kawan jgk dgn dia lah. and dia pernah cakap she has a cousin in accounts. tkde la cousin dkt. but still, ada relation. didn't know it was him. so, that day when she pointed it out,

"haaa. tu, tu (nudge, nudge)" in the cafe, time tu lunch. budak budak Bio dpt lepas awal, budak budak Accounts baru keluar lah kot, so, they began swarming the cafe.

Me: apa dia? siapa kau nk tunjuk ni?
Shaz: cousin aku tu lah. yang aku cakap tu.
Me: ohh. mana? mana?
Shaz: tu, tu. yg tinggi tu.
Me: yg jalan ngan cousin Yana tu ke?

apparently, everyone ada cousin kt sini -_-"

Shaz: haaa. yes, yes. yg jalan ngan Izzat tu.
Me: ohhhhh *ya allah ya tuhanku. si gebang ni rupanya. ni kena bgtau Mariam ni.*
Yana: haha. baguslah tu. cousin kau ngan cousin aku kwn baik.
Anis: and korang dua pun kwn baik.
Me: and you both hate your cousins.
Yana & Shaz: shaking heads ; probably thinking "we're some screwed up bunch"

i wonder la mamat gebang tu betul betul from KL ke tak? and apa jelah plans dia cuti cuti ni. lupa pulak nk pegi cafe dengar dia buat pengumuman. damn!

more, MORE.

okay, before we go any further. nak sambung cerita from the previous post kan.. let's call SI tu LRT. sebab nickname dia mmg LRT pun. no. not his nick. we nicknamed him LRT laa. how did we came up with it? senang. since he looks like a chinese, some people call him Ah C___ (at least i think that's why they call him that). so at first, we call him AC je. but then, mcm close sgt to his nick tu. so kalau cakap cakap pasal AC, dah ramai yg boleh suspect AC tu siapa. so my friend Fatin pun keluarkan laa idea dia yang bernas from god knows where.

Fatin : okay okay. kita bagi dia nama cina lain.

Me : nama cina lain? okay, fine. apa dia?

Fatin : hmm. Lim Tat.

Me : (laughs) Lim Tat? mana la kau dapat nama tu.

Fatin : haha. okay apaaa.

Me : okay, okay. Lim Tat. so.. LT?

Fatin : haa. LT.

Me : LRT jelah senang. LT mcm pelik ah. tergeliat lidah nak sebut.

Fatin : haa, okay. LRT.

Both : (smile, satisfied)

so, there we go. LRT it is. haha, bodoh.

okay, so sambung from yesterday. he sat right next to me. dia ada la cakap cakap sikit. he sat at the back tu sebab he wants to study Biology during kuliah Chemistry. sebab at that time, Biology's Assessment Test was around the corner. selamba dia je.

okay, so that's the first time duduk sebelah dia. second time is the time, where everything fell exactly where i want it to be. hehe.

he masuk DK. terus duduk right next to me. Hidung was out of his way, Hidung's friends were out of his way. everyone was out of his way. macam semua tau yg LRT akan walk in through that door and head for the seat right next to mine. so, semua ke tepi, memberi laluan. HAHAHAHA.

and so, duduk la dia kat situ. we talked at every chance we have. actually, we only talk when he ask me something. and i liked it ;p

and then, kuliah habis. but then after that, there's an extra kuliah. padahal at that time, dah pukul 4. which is our official dismissal time. but for Bio students, there's extra lecture on that day. so, i stayed. but LRT and Hidung dah gerak gerak dah. and then, LRT ni dah angkat bag. rasa mcm nak merayu je suruh dia duduk lah balik. jangan ponteng. stay seated right next to me. HAHA. but memang tak ah. buat cool sudaa.

LRT : awak, jom.

Me : pegi mana?

LRT : balik ah. balik bilik.

Me : eh, ada kuliah laa.

LRT : alaa, jom ah.

Me : eh tkpe laa.

LRT : jom ah. masuk bilik.

Me : wow.

LRT : hah? nak? jom ah.

Me : wow. haha. tknk la. tkpe. pegi laa.

LRT : okay lah. bye.

Me : bye. *did he just say "bye"?*

mcm tk percaya je he actually said bye. okay, and then he went. and so i thought, habis lah. that was it. my only moments with him. dah habis. finito. then, lecturer pun masuk. and then, boleh dgr lah pintu DK tu kuek, kuek sebab orang masuk. konon konon yang tadi keluar tu semua baru realize memang betul ada kuliah sebab tadi bajet sure tk sure ada ke tak. so, masuk lah balik. i keep turning everytime the door squeaks. mana la tau, LRT nak masuk balik. but, no hope. mmg tak laa. after a while, i start ignoring the squeaks. bukan dia akan masuk pun.

tetiba, ada la this one squeak. dah lama dah squeak, tapi orangnya tk masuk masuk pulak? ramai yg tadi turned to look pun dah turn depan balik dah. so, i took a chance. i turned. tk nampak pape. or sesiape kat pintu tu. it's open but tkde orang. ahh sudah! dah la masuk lambat. nak intip intip pulak. masuk jelah. and then i see some spikes of hair. it looks familiar. tengok punya tengok. laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. it's him. LRT. dia pun masuk laa. diikuti dengan Hidung. and Hidung's friends. dah masuk selamba tu. dengan selamba jugak la dia duduk balik in his spot, right next to mine. and i felt myself giggling. AGAIN -_-

LRT : hi :)

Me : hi :)

LRT : (taking out notes and stuff)

Me : kata nak balik? kenapa dtg balik?

LRT : entah. diorang ni ah tadi nak sgt keluar.

Me : hmm. yelahh. *i'm just glad you're back*

after an hour that felt like a minute, kuliah pun habis. i was already packed to go. saja je pack early. boleh cabut awal. so, time lecturer tgh give last points, i was looking at my bag anxiously. and then i saw it. a spider. slowly, crawling on the handle of my bag. please la jgn lompat masuk, please la jgn lompat masuk. plup! the spider lompat jugak masuk in my bag. ahhh. shit! and then, i was checking the inside of my bag for it. tp takut takut. so, pegang bag pun mcm cubit cubit kat tepi tepi. time ni orang lain tgh sibuk kemas kemas, nk keluar dah.

LRT : awak. kenapa ni?

Me : ada spider masuk.

LRT : hah? mana ada.

Me : ehh. ada laa. saya tau laa. saya nampak dia lompat masuk td.

LRT : eishh (sambil belek belk my bag)

Me : dia kat dlm la. dh kat bwh kot.

LRT : (seluk sampai bawah) tkde pun?

Me : adaaa. (dh malas. so, i began carrying my bag. tp mcm tknk bawak. bawak tapi jauh jauh from my body)

LRT : (chuckles) tkde pape laa.

Me : ada. (mampus kau lah)

LRT : tukar bag lah? awak bawak bag saya. saya bawak bag awak.

Me : hah? tukar bag?

LRT : haa. nak?

Me : hmm, meh. (already offering my hand for his bag)

LRT : (smiling. and grab my bag)

tetiba, ada je orang nk inter-frame from bawah.

Dude001 : haaa, Amm. kau buat apa tu?

LRT : (gelak gelak)

Dude001 : apa kau buat ni Amm. apa jelah kau ni.

LRT : (gelak. and then handing me my bag.)

so, automatically, i handed him his. and ada la mcm dissapointed jugak. sebok je orang orang kat bawah ni. diam sudah la. and then he already walked away to the door. i was a bit slow. yelah, bag dh la berat, terpaksa bawak jauh jauh from body lagi. haih. finally, sampai pun kat pintu. all i was thinking about was how the day was filled with LRT. HAHAHA. then kat luar, i heard his voice calling me. scanned for him. rupa rupanya dia kat tepi pintu je. walked with me skejap. then, he asked for my numb. i gave it to him while he offered to carry my bag sebab nampak mcm terseksa sgt agaknya nk bawak bag berat yg ada spider tu while punching in my number in his phone. HAHA. and while we walked together tu, from DK to our blocks (well, he was heading to the cafe, but whatever. same direction), i know, banyak mata mata yg memandang. yang berani tegur pun cuma his friends je. tegur pun nk tanya nk lepak mana time tu. and LRT would be saying "Cafe A, Cafe A! Bang Din"

i was too tired of the day. all i could think about was nak shower bila sampai bilik nanti. and how i'll break this good news to my roommates. HAHAHA. finally, some improvement between me and LRT.

it was a good day. indeed, a good one :)

little things

okayy. nak bukak cerita KMP dah ni. and very anxious about it. hee.

if korang noticed la kan, before this, i had a post about matrics life. not really life tp mcm tu lah. yg pasal cuci cuci mata semua tu. okayyy. this here, would be the sambungan for it.

first of all, the classmate i was talking about. the one with pretty face, damn smart tp tk pandang perempuan tu.. has already been nicknamed. by who? by us laa. the girls. haha. it's me, Yana (classmate), Yana's friend, Shaz (other class), Fatin (classmate) and ada la some others yg knows about it also tp the one who actually came up with the name was Shaz and Yana i think? it's Along. why Along? entah la, i have no clue jugak. i think because he's smart kot? and he actually does pandang perempuan okay! normal guy. tp dia tk layan. tp dia main mata. and when he bat that eyelashes of his.. fuhh! Aphrodite pun kalah *tipu lah Aphrodite pun boleh kalah?* okay, so that's one.

and then, the Iranian dude. i'm still not sure whether or not he's Iranian. but i don't think he's a Kelantanese. okay, tu memang i'm sure. not a Kelantanese. probably from Kedah. and his name isn't Wan. people just call him that as a short form of his name which is not, i repeat, not Wan. or even starts with Wan. ahaha. but now, he's not that appealing anymore. he's still handsome but not attractive dah. hahaha.

and now. the ultimate one. the rebellious one. the one.

it's SI!

ahaa. i mentioned him too. in the last blog. he's the one yg asked me "melayu ke cina?" and then we never spoke to each other since that. and we eyed each other in DK. okay, well. that whole eye-ing each other finally paid off *like as if i was eye-ing him for something? whatthe?*

hahaha. okay. in conclusion. we're friends now. since the election for JPP, he always sits in front with the chosen JPP tu, which is also a friend of mine. i moved to the back row in the DK konon konon nak dekat dengan dia, tiba tiba dia pulak duduk depan. nak join JPP dude tu. okay, so buat bodoh jelah kan. tkkan la sampai mcmtu sekali nak kejar dia. so, he sits in front kat bawah sana, i sit on the top. and usually besides me, mesti Hidung punya spot. don't ask me why his nick is Hidung. please. Hidung is a friend of SI, they're not close. i don't think so. but they are friends. Hidung has two close friends and so, the three spots beside me tu memang selalu occupied by them. kalau tk tiga tiga tu pun. at least Hidung! dia mesti next to me. we sit together in DK, bump into each other pun a lot. my favourite spot in library is close to his but TAK PERNAH tegur. tk pernah! langsung! i've tried smiling at him once. he smiled back tp mcm shocked je. padahal sebenarnya kalau he's open to me like when he's with his friends, we could've been close friends by now. rapat sangat dah. because selalu sangat jumpa. like whereever he is, kat situ lah jugak i'll be.

alright, enough about Hidung. back to SI.

one hot day, we had to go for kuliah. so, masuk lah DK. i sat in my spot, my favourite spot lah. and Hidung's not there yet. tengah panas panas tu, aircond dlm DK tu rasa mcm jalan tk jalan je, so, i reached for my kipas in my bag. and begin kipas-ing myself. JPP lalu (he has a name tp tkkan nk tulis kan? nickname belum ada lg although we always call him Shaz's Along ; abang Shaz because they kinda look alike). he lalu tu sebab tgh sebok sebok, borak borak dgn semua orang, sebab lecturer pun blm masuk, awal lagi. so, he must've put his bag down there and then jalan jalan sampai ke atas ni.

JPP : Amelyaaa.. wehh, kipas aku skali. aku pun panas.

Me : aku pun panas ni..

JPP : aku tau. nampak kau kipas laju je. sini sket ah.. panas jugak ni

Me : yelah yelah. sini laa.. tkkan aku nak pegi sana

(dia pun dtg lah, duduk beside me. i start kipas kipas for two people terus)

JPP : haaa. ni baru lah sedap sikit. sejuk je.

Me : ahh, sudah la kau. penat aku.

JPP : eh, sini ah sket. baru boleh rasa mcm anak raja.

Me : anak raja lah pulakk

JPP : ehh, betul lah. aku anak raja tau. ada la kerabat kerabat sket.

Me : dah start dah gebang dia

(SI masuk DK. i saw him and was hoping he would see me. time ni Hidung dah ada dah kat sebelah. layan JPP ni jugak. and finally.. SI spotted me. kipas-ing his friend, the JPP. he stared while i buat bodoh)

SI : amboi Dam..

JPP : hahaha. asal? aku panas, dia ada kipas. sekali je ah.

Me : (continue kipas-ing ; buat buat tk dengar their conversation)

SI : eh. awak, awak.

Me : ye?

SI : jangan layan dia tu, bahaya.

Me : bahaya ke? biasa je.

JPP : haaa. kau tengok. biasa je. kau gelabah pahal?

(semua dah gelak gelak. JPP, Hidung, Hidung's friends SI and Me. and then, SI took his bag from his spot kat bawah tu, pindah naik atas. two seats from me. sebelah Hidung je.)

SI : awak, lepas awak kipas dia. awak duduk sini, kipas saya pulak. boleh?

Me : (too mesmerized to think properly) boleh. tkde masalah.

SI : (talking to Hidung) haa. kau tgk. dia dh terpikat kat aku pada pandangan pertama.

(and then, gelak gelak again. tergolek golek this time. SI and Hidung jelah)

Me : (ouch. he noticed!)

JPP : awak jgn layan sgt dia tu.

Me : (yeah right, jangan layan pebenda, dah mesmerized td) ohh. kenapa?

JPP : dia tu perogol sikit

Me : WHATTT? (gila pe mamat ni?)

JPP : hahaha. tkde ah, dia ni perogol bersiri dan playboy bersiri.

Me : ohh. hahahaha. tau tau.

JPP : hah? tau? mcm mana tau?

Me : tgk muka pun tktau.

JPP : wow (muka astonished gila)

okay sampai situ je lah conversation yg boleh disiarkan secara terang terang. haha. after that, kuliah dah nak start. SI switch places with Hidung. so, he was close. very close. just right beside me :)

you can take the girl out of KL, but you can never take KL out of the girl.

finally, UPS dah habis. and i'm home :D weeeee.

HAHAHA.

tktau la kenapa tp rasa mcm happy gila pulak dah samapi rumah. padahal kalau boleh nak stay lama lama kat college. i even signed up to do volunteer work for the KAKOM business at my college. but then, last minute, cancel. so, kena lah balik.

okay, agenda for this two weeks mid-sem break. hmm, nothing yet. so far, still free. which is a good thing i guess. time kat KMP, tktau la kenapa, but all i could think about when i think of KL is Pavilion. kalau tk Pavilion, The Curve, IKEA and Alamanda. even KLCC crossed my mind! tu tandanya apa? tu tandanya tk rindu KL, rindu shopping je. okay, fine. tipu lah kalau cakap rindu shopping je. padahal pernah je pergi keluar ke Jitra Mall tu. siap tengok movie lagi. two in a row! haha, marathon terus kat situ. but still tk terubat rindu. so, memang rindu KL lah kot. kalau tk pegi tempat tempat berikut pun tkpe, dapat shopping, jalan kat KL ni pun dah boleh dah. fuh! okay, tk sabar ni. however, all shoping activities or rather, window-shopping activities kena tunggu jap sebab badan still penat from carrying luggage semalam. eheh. but apa apa pun, shopping akan dijalankan. mark my words. HAHA.

and also, kalau jadi, and hopefully this time it will jadi, my daddy is coming home. big grin. can't wait to see him. can't wait sangat sangat. then, maybe when it's time for me to go back to college, he can come along or better yet, hantarkan terus! tk payah naik flight, roadtrip je terus ke Perlis. with my daddy :D

okay, a bit of an update of KMP life. sikit je nak cerita ni. sebab, nak cerita panjang panjang kena buat another post. so.. here goes.

ehh. tk jadi laa. HAHAHA. in later post, i'll tell everything.

till then, ciao.

S.O.S

i'm shit desperate to go back. just to be there for the cheercomp. bukan pasal cheercomp sangat pun. just nak jumpa orang. ramai orang. orang orang that i left. orang orang that i promised to meet at cheercomp. i'm sorry guys. really, i am. i wanna come home, tapi tk boleh. sorry. soooo sorry. and ahaha, of course, all the best to Xavier and Adele too. i miss all of you guys. and you know who you are.

P/S: kalau ada sesiapa nak sponsor me balik, sila sila lah bgtau. ahaha. i doubt lah ada orang yg sebaik tu :r

bila nak merdeka ni?

last night, ada Assessment Test for bio. it wasn't hard but entah. mcm tk sedap hati je. on Tuesday nanti ada Assessment Test for chem pulak. aduhhhh. pecah la kepala. and there's the KAKOM business lagi. shit lah. on the 13th until 15th, ada UPS, which is the Semester Exam. HAHAHAHA. boleh jadi gila mcm ni.

one thing i've come to realize since i'm here in KMP, is that i'm not that dependent. i am somewhat independent jugak. HAHA. boleh je. because i realized, everyone is leaving me. here, the people here. in KMP. mcm one by one is going out, leaving me. going to a 2-year programme lah, UiTM lah, JPA offer lah, Maktab offer lah. mcm mcm.

so, in the end, all the friends that i've come across with, made connection with, are all drifting away. memang lah ada number semua, but alahai, kenal pun baru sebulan, how much sangat lah can i hold on to the "keep in touch tau?" promise?

so, yeah. a lot of those are happening now. dah la i'm practically left by my KL friends. well, actually, i left them lah. tapi sebab jauh sangat ke apa entah, tiba tiba mcm lose contact with them jugak. dah made new friends kat sini, diorang pulak leaving.

ahhhh, shit.

whatever lah. my muscles are too sore, and my brain is too messy to think about people drifting out of my life. maybe it's just something everyone has to experience in life?

yeah, maybe.

okay, dah penat. i'll update more, later. ciao :D