when i was younger, around 5, 6 or 7. i wished my brothers were a bit more grown up. they were born when i was 5. so, nak main dgn diorang mcm susah. i was like 5. happily playing with Legos and stuff, and them? they're babies who can barely even hold their own bottles. so, i wished i had brothers or sisters yg umur agak agak dekat to mine so that i can play with them. dpt main sep sep sep, tom tom tom pun jadi lah. and now, they're grown up. and it's something that i like but i kinda wish my little brothers would be LITTLE forever. tp of course tkkan. they're almost as tall as me now -__-" pretty soon, i'm gonna have to look up while talking to them. and their voices! it's changing too. and how do i know this? sebab duduk jauh sgt. all the way kat perlis. so, sekali sekala balik rumah, jumpa my brothers, suara dh tukar. whoaaa. suara dh macho dh skrg. no more whiney voices of the cry babies that i used to know. padahal nmpk lipas, still jerit jerit jugak -__-"
i used to be very very very close with my dad. not so much with my mom. my mom used to be the one who would be scolding me all the time. and my dad would come to the rescue. but since i lived with my mom for 3 years without my dad. that changed too. she still scolds me like every second though, that didn't changed -.- but we're closer now. i understand her better. and i'm guessing she does too? well, she knows me better now i guess. i liked it. and now that my dad's back, it feels different. the bond that we used to have mcm dh tkde. of course la we still talk and stuff but mcm not as close as dulu. and maybe it's because i'm not used to having him around. so, maybe if i spend time with him, everything will be like it was. but, tk boleh. jumpa family pun sekali sekala je. most of the time, i'm in perlis. so, there's another change.
mcm mcm lagi changes that happened in my life lately. and i, am still finding time and strength to adapt to it all. and it's really draining me out. i miss a lot of people. at the same time, i'm meeting lots of new people. but still, i need all the ones that i had before. the new acquaintances are great but whoever said, i'm letting go the ones i used to have.
bak kata Keane ;
"So little time
Try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same"
ughhh.
New Moon, come out already!
*menyimpang jap :/
