changes.

changes happen. and it usually brings no good. well, for me, it doesn't. so, conclusionnya, i hate changes. okay, jap. no, i don't hate it. i just don't like it. tp selalunya time will make me adapt to it. to the changes that happened around me.

when i first moved to U.S, i didn't like it. sikit jelah. rasa mcm tk selesa. of course lah kann, kt tempat orang. but i was opened to new ideas and new lifestyle. so, after a while, dah adapted to the new environment. and i fell in love with U.S. and still loving it, and missing it oh so much :(

when i was younger, around 5, 6 or 7. i wished my brothers were a bit more grown up. they were born when i was 5. so, nak main dgn diorang mcm susah. i was like 5. happily playing with Legos and stuff, and them? they're babies who can barely even hold their own bottles. so, i wished i had brothers or sisters yg umur agak agak dekat to mine so that i can play with them. dpt main sep sep sep, tom tom tom pun jadi lah. and now, they're grown up. and it's something that i like but i kinda wish my little brothers would be LITTLE forever. tp of course tkkan. they're almost as tall as me now -__-" pretty soon, i'm gonna have to look up while talking to them. and their voices! it's changing too. and how do i know this? sebab duduk jauh sgt. all the way kat perlis. so, sekali sekala balik rumah, jumpa my brothers, suara dh tukar. whoaaa. suara dh macho dh skrg. no more whiney voices of the cry babies that i used to know. padahal nmpk lipas, still jerit jerit jugak -__-"

i used to be very very very close with my dad. not so much with my mom. my mom used to be the one who would be scolding me all the time. and my dad would come to the rescue. but since i lived with my mom for 3 years without my dad. that changed too. she still scolds me like every second though, that didn't changed -.- but we're closer now. i understand her better. and i'm guessing she does too? well, she knows me better now i guess. i liked it. and now that my dad's back, it feels different. the bond that we used to have mcm dh tkde. of course la we still talk and stuff but mcm not as close as dulu. and maybe it's because i'm not used to having him around. so, maybe if i spend time with him, everything will be like it was. but, tk boleh. jumpa family pun sekali sekala je. most of the time, i'm in perlis. so, there's another change.

mcm mcm lagi changes that happened in my life lately. and i, am still finding time and strength to adapt to it all. and it's really draining me out. i miss a lot of people. at the same time, i'm meeting lots of new people. but still, i need all the ones that i had before. the new acquaintances are great but whoever said, i'm letting go the ones i used to have.

bak kata Keane ;

"So little time

Try to understand that I'm

Trying to make a move just to stay in the game

I try to stay awake and remember my name

But everybody's changing

And I don't feel the same"

ughhh.

New Moon, come out already!

*menyimpang jap :/

19th Anniversary

October 27th. yup. every year, on that date, my parents would be celebrating their anniversary. well, they don't always celebrate it maybe? idk. whatever. but since my brothers and i are actually matured enough to understand this celebration, we tend to get excited too *wth? and occasionally get them gifts too.

and that's what happen this year too. but we (my brothers and i) didn't get them anything pun :( instead, we just got them a card. and ordered cupcakes. but it was all a suprise. hehe.

and don't even get me started on the torturing journey i had to go through to actually make this work. with only two days left to plan everything, i managed to pull everything off. perghhh. thank god lah.

first of all, nk cari the cupcakes. bkn senang gua ckp. yelahh, considering the fact that i can't drive. damn! i feel like a child sometimes. so, yeah. cari punya cari. finally got some. but they're all about "place your order 5 days before pick up day" and such. walhal, i only have like two days at that time. TWO! luckily, one responded and said she could do it. even in that short notice. i was like phew! thanks a lot to http://ayulicious-cakes.blogspot.com/ but, she can't deliver lah pulak. mak aih. satu, satu la problem. and then, i decided there and then. mampus lah. nak kena pick up pun, pick up jelah sendiri. pandai pandai la i'll work my way through.

and so, i did..

but i need someone by me. and the one person that i usually turn to for this, is my beloved bestfriend, Fatin Farhana. the comel one. eh, tak. dh matured dh dia skrg. hotstuff ;)

hehe. thank you, Fatin. sayangg you :)

okay. so, we went all the way to Kak Ayu's house. which is in Ukay Perdana. tah kat mana. both of us are not familiar with tht place. so, we took a cab from KLCC to tht place. jauh gila kot. tambang dia bukan main tinggi. and then, it rains like gila gila pouring rain. hadoyyy. after getting the cupcakes, go back to the KLCC. so, the tambang tu je dh boleh mkn KFC berapa round dh *ye ke? haihh.

but all in all, i guess it's all worth it when i actually worked everything out. the suprise went well. because nobody expected it. neither Papa or Mama. all three of us acted like we didn't remember a thing, and when they did tell us pun, we gave responds like "oh, okay. happy anni then" haha! and then, they took us to dinner. which was to celebrate them actually but well, joined by us jugak? tah la. and then, after dinner lah was the suprise. hehe. bukak bukak je pintu rumah, there it is. on the dining table. so, of course, being a photography-lover, my mom was taking pictures of it for such a long time. i think she took 10 snaps of the same thing. only different angles, different this and that, and other shits. but whatever, it's hers. so yeah.

so, now, i'm so tired of the day. my legs are sore. and my head is aching from all the pressure about this. fortunately, dh habis dh pun. dh settle dh pun.

here are the pics. enjoy :)

October twenty-fourth, two thousand nine :)

first of all, i would like to wish my beloved younger sis, Jiji, a very Happy Birthday. i hope you enjoy your fifteenth year of existence, sayang :)

didn't actually celebrate it with her. but hey, i went out. with my brothers. as usual. so, it's safe to say the Trio's back. although, it won't be for long i guess :( i'm gonna have to go back soon so i'll just make the best of the time that i have with my brothers. i miss them. since dulu dulu, we were close kan. yelah, mak bapak bukan bagi sgt pun keluar. so, we're all stuck with each other. getting on each other's nerves. and trying not to kill each other gets harder day by day.

so, since i went off to college, rindu pulak. tkde dh dgr lawak lawak bodoh, sarcasm yg mengundang penyepak ke muka semua and their random act of dancing. hahaha. bodoh gilaa. suka kati je nk dancing like a maniac, tk kira time, tk kira tempat. sepak kang baru tau.

so, today, we hung out. it was sooooooooooo tiring. berapa kali lah tawaf tempat tu tadi. from the morning, sampai la petang. rasa mcm everybody there pun dh berapa kali dh nampak us walking around.

anyway, mcm biasa, bila dgn diorang, mmg tk kering gusi lah. ada je lawak lawak diorang. but, my favourite, was the one time dh sampai rumah dh. johan, my brother just got out of bathroom after showering kot? ntah. and jefri was kat mana tah. so, i decided to lepak jap in their room. i jumped on jefri's bed and laughed. and here's what follows ;

Johan : haha, keras kan? katil dia.
Me : tak lah. mine pun mcmni.
Johan : really? then you should try mine. lembut gila.
Me : really? how come?

(Jefri walks in)

Jefri : eh kak, don't la jump on it, nanti patah lagi.

(Me, remembering that his bed actually did patah before, quickly jumped off)

Johan : jump on mine! and feel it. it's lembut.
Me : okay, okay. i'll jump on it.

(Me tgh ready nk jump)

Me : eh, tk jadi lah. takut.
Johan : ishh. cepat la.
Jefri : tah, cepat la.

apasal diorang pulak yang excited ni? oh well. so, i jumped.

Me : hahahaha. it feels like water-bed.
Johan : it does. kan?
Jefri : (smiling ; satisfied)

and then, all of sudden, i heard it. the squeaks. haha. his bed has the squeaks! so, i would repeatedly use my weight to make it squeak. finally, they spoke.

Jefri : oit. tk payah laa cmtu.
Me : haha. best laa. squeak, squeak.
Johan : bodoh ohh (smiling)

and then, i kept on doing it. while laughing non-stop. Jefri walks off to mandi maybe. Johan finally looks at me. and he went, "you crazy little bitch"

HAHAHA. that one caught me! how can he say that? no, i'm not suprised at the 'bitch' part, my brothers refer to me as that since azali lagi, but 'little'?! who's he calling little? i'm the eldest here. sengal punya orang. lepas dia cakap, boleh buat selamba pulak tu. hadoyy.

johan... johan..

to the one i love,

sayang, i found it. i found the song. thanks eh. and i have thousands of songs to dedicate to you. cuma tktau mcm mana nk dedicate to you. afraid, i guess. afraid of your reaction. but the fact that you dedicate that song to me, when i least expect it, made me fall for you all over again. and this time, deeper. trust me, i miss you too. cuma tk larat nk cakap dah. tknk layan dah lara hati. haha. buat bodoh je. but seriously, if i was picking a flower at every time that i think of you, i'd be having meadows all over the world by now. and it gives me tingling feeling when i know that you miss me too. haha. mission accomplished la sayang. i made you missed me. terkejut gila lah when you said you missed me. and when you give me that song.

and yes, i miss talking on the phone with you late at night like we always did too. and sometimes you would call just to sing to me. memekak je tgh tgh mlm. with your guitar. and sometimes your guitar gets too loud until i can't even hear what you're singing. and all i did was just laugh silently because i would rather know that you're on the other end of the line singing something that i couldn't comprehend than not hearing your voice at all. i miss it. i do.

tp tkpe. we both study dulu okay. later, we'll make it work. oh yes! you forgot my birthday. haha. but i tk marah sbb haha.. sbb i pun forgot yours kan dulu. i've tried calling you a thousand times since i can now call you for free. until saturday because it only lasts for 7 days from my birthday. but you tk on pun your number yang tu. nanti, when you do turn it on, and nampak ada seribu lebih missed calls and it's already after saturday, jgn ckp i tk pernah call you lagi tau.

haaaa. haritu you called. to wish me luck kan? for final paper of final exam. thank you sayang. very unexpected. entah apa mimpi you tetiba call i. dh la time tu suara pun ceria semacam. high ke? haha.

okay, take care sayang. ILY.

sincerely,

Amelya Jamal

Sweet 18th

this year, my birthday falls on exam time, AGAIN. and i was waaaaaaaaay far from family. not overseas laa. but way far up north jugak.

to all who remembered. thank you so much. i appreciate it even if it was just a wish by text messaging. Shamir, siap call lagi. betul betul on time. thank you.

to the girls who sang to me around my bed at 12:00 am, Mariam, Asyuk, Ika, Nabilah, Anna, thank you so much. i love you girls. Min, kau terlambat beberapa saat for that performance, tp still sayang kau. haha.

and Yanaaaaa. you had a suprise party planned for me. haha. tk sangka betul. time turun kt cafe tu pun, tk bwk pape. phones semua tinggal je kt dlm bilik. bwk duit pun cukup2 je. mati mati aku ingat si Wani tu was straving like hell. tetiba je paksa paksa turun pegi cafe sbb nk mkn. aku suruh tunggu after maghrib pun tk sanggup.

my friends in KL. Fatin, Farahnor, Gill, Jiji sayang, Nazatul, DQ, thanks for the wishes. and to those yg wish lambat pun, i still appreciate it. thanks guys.

malangnya, tkde gmbr pun. sbb time turun for that suprise party, tk bwk camera kan? who would have thought there would be a party when the next day is Biology Paper II AND Physics Paper II? lol.

and the night when i arrived in KL. there were things on my bed. birthday cards and presents. so, thanks Papa, Mama and my growing-up-right-before-my-eyes brothers, Johan and Jefri :)

dinner just now was great too. thanks Mama. thanks to all lah. senang.

with my brother Johan, at the dinner

Mama, thank you :)

dpt tangkap gmbr dgn Johan and Mama je kt dinner td. sebab they were on my sides. HAHA. while Papa and Jefri were in front of us. nak gerak gerak, orang pun dh pandang pelik time snap snap ni. haha. tkpe. nanti snap lagi banyak banyak. snap sampai lebam.

sincerely from the bottom of my heart,

THANK YOU TO ALL WHO CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY. THANKS A LOT. LOVE YOU GUYS.

Raya in KMP

this jamuan raya was held on.. bila eh? jap jap. check the date jap. haaaa. on the 30th of September. yes, i know. dh dkt sebulan dh. tp baru nk post skrg. i haven't actually got the time to post blogs at college. it was around exam time. and mcm tkde keje lah pulak nk pegi online kt library semata mata nk post blog.

actually, fikir balik.. boleh je kalau nk pegi library to update my blog nih. okay, tu lain cerita. now, about the jamuan.

so benda tu was like a jamuan lah. where there's makan makan and of course celebration of the Eid. and the girls all look gorgeous in their baju kurungs and baju kebayas. and the guys were Oh-So-Hot dgn baju melayu diorang. OMG. mmg hot gila. i go weak for guys with baju melayu. hehe. pardon me.

the hall was packed with people. the lecturers were in front and the students were crushed at the back. everyone was supposed to sit at their own table. according to class lah. and the tables were supposed to be decorated by the students of the class. and the most presentable table will win. my class didn't win pun :(

and they actually used my batik to decorate the table, which by the way i haven't got back. so, anyone? please. bring me my batik back please ;)

so, of course, the girls, snap sana, snap sini. i'm not really a big fan of pictures. but kalau orang snap, senyum jelah. tu pun kadang kadang malas. but i did snap a few pics. until my battery went off. after snaping pictures, i walked around with Yana and Hanis. all over the hall. and then, trserempak dgn Farhan. he asked me to go to his table. and then, once i'm there, he asked me to eat the food kt situ. and since i haven't actually eat anything eventhough it's a freakin jamuan, i hesitantly took his offer and eat that thing. pebenda tah nama tht food. lupa dah.

and since i'm there. at his table. eating by his side. with him by my side. everyone just can't help but to look at us. and i think all his friends offered to take our picture. perghhhh. rasa mcm celebrity pun ada time tu. semua lalu, semua nk snap. sudah sudah la tu. orang nk mkn pun tk senang. but, i smiled jelah. penat.

after mkn, we walked around. again, bumped to a few more papparazis who are very interested in taking our pictures :

so, we walked, have our pictures taken. then, walk again, then snap snap again. then, tiba tiba, my other friend, Razin asked me if he can his pictures taken with me. so, i agreed. and then while i was posing posing, Farhan hilang kemana tah. so, last last, i hang with my other friend ni pulak. until the jamuan was over. after the jamuan pun, we went to the cafe pulak. to have a drink. haha. like as if tk cukup minum padahal td ada jamuan. yelah kan, time orang duduk mkn, pegi jalan jalan lah, snap pictures lah. eh tak. tak take pictures pun. people yg snap our pictures -.-"

so these are the pictures.

my table. the green, the red, the stripes, the two in front of the stripes and the specky are my classmates. the one trying to avoid the camera is Shu Hwei :)

classmates. meet Yana, my crime partner (in red) and Hanis :)



Hanis, Yana, Naz, me and Shaz. Naz and Shaz are from different tutorials.


here, you can see another classmate of mine, Thinna. sedondon dgn Yana :P

more classmates :D

my tutorial, HP 7.

ketua aras, Asyuk :)

another classmate, Fatin :)

meet my friend, Farhan. Accounting student :)

this is Farhan's classmate who took the very first pic of Farhan and i. she's also the one who sediakn the food for me because Farhan asked her to. haha. sengal lah Farhan. idk her name. wait, actually, i asked. but i guess i forgot -.-

this was taken by someone else. but using my camera. hehe.


i have no idea why. but i like this one.


Farhan again.

with Farhan again, outside the hall. taken by another friend of his. after about 5 or more of his friends took our picture inside the hall.

and this is Razin. Physical student :)

this time, i got bored. so, i asked him to pose so i can take his picture.

this was taken because i asked him to put on his songkok and Shaz, Yana and i thought he'd look good wearing his songkok like that. and he did :P

and this is Razin's friend. also a Physical student. idk his name but i call him Mamat Mata Kilau. because his eyes sparkles like stars. padahal tk pakai contact lenses or even drinks the Brands Innershine thing. lol. memang tk nmpak kt dlm gmbr ni. tp mata dia mmg berkilauan lah. haha.

too small of a heart

being a Bio student in matricualtion college, i should've expected that i'd be doing crazy shit like dissecting a rat! yes, i know time form 5 pun ada dissect dissect ni, tp unfortunately my class didn't do it. dissecting a frog tu, yeah, we skippped that. so tu dissect a rat or anything actually is a bit, no, a LOT out of this world for me. padahal cita cita nk jadi vet -_-"

so, on the morning of August 17th haritu, bgn la mcm biasa. nk pegi class. i was well-informed that Bio Exp number 9, 10, 11, 12 tu akan dijalankan pada hari itu. yes, the dissection. i wasn't scared. tp mcm excited. sebab tk pernah buat. however, still kesian kat tikus tikus tu. so, in the morning tu, tgh siap2 nk pegi lecture, snap2 gambar jap

haha. letak satu je cukup laa. and then, at 9 masuk lab. still excited. mcm tk percaya pun ada jgk. like "biar betul aku nk bedah tikus ni". LOL. okay, so masuk lah. after dh ambik semua utensils dia.. now, nk kena pegi ambik tikus pulak. the tikus is not completely dead but not alive either

rupa mcm sergeon tk? haha. bodoh gila. padahal time ni snap gmbr sebab apa? sebab tk berani buat. siap nangis okay. haha. tkde lah sobbing tp mcm tearing up sikit bukan sebab takut. sebab kesian. and the thing smells like.. ah tau tau jelah. even the cikgu offered tu bukak kan (yes, bukak. as in, cut the thing open). my classmates pun offer nk buatkan. sebab semua dh start cutting sana, cutting sini. my tikus je yg still there. pinned on that thing but not cut open yet. time nk pin kan kaki and tgn dia tu pun rasa mcm kesian gila. LOL. last last, cikgu bukakkan jugak.

so, there you go. geli kan? hahaha. tu baru sikit. we're supposed to like cut him open, and keluarkan everything out his tummy. to study the digestion system. pastu naik atas pulak, nk study dia punya circulation system. the heart, lungs semua tu lah.

okay. dah cukup. tgk balik gambar gambar ni give me goosebumps. haha. nasib baik cikgu bagi snap2 gmbar. tkde lah tension sgt. snap sana, snap sini. siap record video semua. and then, the last part of this experiment is to cut off the head! gila? yes. but we need to do it to study the nervous system which was the brain. so, we need to like get the brain out. and yes, i did :( and you'd think that while i'm doing all of this, the heart stops. but no, it didn't. even after it's headless, the heart is still beating. yes, ada logical explanation. it's a part of what we studied. so, yeah. there we go.

apa laaa. kata nak jadi veterinarian, tapi nk dissect benda alah ni pun susah sgt. kalau betul betul ada case nanti, entah berapa lama la the poor animal kena duduk unconcious in my O.R tu. haihh.

a moment of deep thoughts

after reading my friend's blog ni, http://http://shitsinmylife.blogspot.com/2009/08/i-miss-you.html, terasa mcm "awwwwhh" LOL. don't get me wrong, i loved the years i spent in CBN. i love CBN with all my heart and of course i love all the friends that i've connected with, hated the enemy, disliked the bitches and hoes and cherish the ones i've come across with. i loved it all.



but now i'm all alone. and memang at first, it sounds shitty. being alone kan. but it's actually a good thing for me. there's a lot of things that i do now but couldn't do it before. A LOT. i used to be accompanied everywhere i go. i wasn't that dependent, but definitely not independent either. tapi skrg, i have no choice. i have to stand on my own. semua kena buat sendiri. at first dulu, memang tk biasa. sumpah rasa cam nk nangis. but i realize now it's actually pretty soothing. being alone and lonely is different. being alone sometimes is what everyone needs. but being lonely tu lain cerita lah.

so, now i'm used to the idea of being alone. sampai kadang kadang i find it annoying to have people around. tp tkde la sampai ke tahap being a loner. tu melampau lah. haha. and tu Nurul, i miss you too. and you awarded me with The-Best-Person-To-Talk-With-About-Boys Award? wow. i'm flattered. ahahaha. i miss 5N 2008 too. no doubt lah. i miss everything about school (apahal lah aku ckp cmni. mcm tua sgt je)

so, anyway.. this blog is actually dedicated to Nurul and the other 5Ners. i love you guys. i love you Nurul. i love you Farahnor. i love you Fatin. i love you Tass (btw, mana you? call laaaaa. i miss you like hell babe). i love you ,Ezora. i miss everyone. i miss you guys. and i love you guys. memang boleh sumpah i won't ever forget you guys. never :)

sincerely,

Amelya Jamal

dedicated to Jiji, adik Faez.

babe, i soooooo love you too. and thanks for the blog post. terharu jugak i baca. there's a lot of things jugak that you've done for me. for starters, without you, Faez and I wouldn't have known each other. so, that was an ENORMOUS help :D entah macam mana lah i nk re-pay you. need me to hook you up with someone jugak ke? haha.

and since i don't have a younger sister, you've always been the younger sis figure for me. and i like it. because you're not bratty. well, at least not with me. tktau la dgn orang lain mcm mana kann :P so, that's why i love you.

as you already know, i'm always here for you. well yes, kadang kadang kat perlis but whatever. sama je. you can still reach me. wherever, whenever. i promise :D

and ehemm, ehemm. what's this about a Bf of yours? wahhh. mentang mentang lah i'm all the way up north, dh tknk update ke? haha. tkpe. up to you. and honestly, i still don't like Amelia. she still appears as a backstabber to me. but well, you know her better than i do, so the choise is yours. it's just, the name Amelia tu sounds evil, don't you think? *tk sedar diri* actually, there's thousands and millions and gazillions and other terms of big quantities that i don't know of reasons why i love you. but shit, i can't write them all here. but i know, memang i love you.

i wish we meet as often as we talk.

HAHA. okay, so in conclusion,

I Love You

and if i can choose, i wouldn't want any other girl to be a younger sis of mine.

So glad I have you,

Mia J :x

siapa cakap?

i miss college. haha. ye, memang. benda ni benda paling pelik dan bodoh korang pernah dengar.

eh, tapi serious ohh. daripada duduk rumah mcmni, tk buat pape. baik masuk college balik. ulang alik pegi class lagi best daripada camni. duduk melangut tk buat pape.

nak keluar pun mcm bosan. tkde kawan :( pathetic gila kan? yelaa, kawan kawan semua kat college sendiri, tk pun ada hal masing masing now. and yes, most of the "hal masing masing" is "bf/gf masing masing".

UGHH.

siapa la budak KL kat KMP yg otak geliga sangat cakap "balik KL lg best wehh" and "KL best ohh, ko tk caye, cuba ko try jalan KL"

oh righttttt. mamat gebang tu! there's this accounts dude. sebenarnya kitorang tk sure pun dia ni from KL or not. tp gaya dia, and kegebangan dia tu ada la mcm ala-ala KL-ian cmtu. dia kalau dh bukak cerita dlm cafe tu, perghhh. satu cafe tu akan dimaklumkan dengan cerita dia tu. cerita dia nk pegi Penang during the weekends. siap dengan nk sewa chalet apa pun, everybody will know. entah apa tah motif dia nk bgtau semua orang tah. so, my roommates and i always call him Budak KL Gebang. until one day, Shaz told me that the dude is her cousin! :O

Shaz isn't a classmate of mine, neither a roommate. she is a friend of my classmate. so, secara tk langsung, kawan jgk dgn dia lah. and dia pernah cakap she has a cousin in accounts. tkde la cousin dkt. but still, ada relation. didn't know it was him. so, that day when she pointed it out,

"haaa. tu, tu (nudge, nudge)" in the cafe, time tu lunch. budak budak Bio dpt lepas awal, budak budak Accounts baru keluar lah kot, so, they began swarming the cafe.

Me: apa dia? siapa kau nk tunjuk ni?
Shaz: cousin aku tu lah. yang aku cakap tu.
Me: ohh. mana? mana?
Shaz: tu, tu. yg tinggi tu.
Me: yg jalan ngan cousin Yana tu ke?

apparently, everyone ada cousin kt sini -_-"

Shaz: haaa. yes, yes. yg jalan ngan Izzat tu.
Me: ohhhhh *ya allah ya tuhanku. si gebang ni rupanya. ni kena bgtau Mariam ni.*
Yana: haha. baguslah tu. cousin kau ngan cousin aku kwn baik.
Anis: and korang dua pun kwn baik.
Me: and you both hate your cousins.
Yana & Shaz: shaking heads ; probably thinking "we're some screwed up bunch"

i wonder la mamat gebang tu betul betul from KL ke tak? and apa jelah plans dia cuti cuti ni. lupa pulak nk pegi cafe dengar dia buat pengumuman. damn!

more, MORE.

okay, before we go any further. nak sambung cerita from the previous post kan.. let's call SI tu LRT. sebab nickname dia mmg LRT pun. no. not his nick. we nicknamed him LRT laa. how did we came up with it? senang. since he looks like a chinese, some people call him Ah C___ (at least i think that's why they call him that). so at first, we call him AC je. but then, mcm close sgt to his nick tu. so kalau cakap cakap pasal AC, dah ramai yg boleh suspect AC tu siapa. so my friend Fatin pun keluarkan laa idea dia yang bernas from god knows where.

Fatin : okay okay. kita bagi dia nama cina lain.

Me : nama cina lain? okay, fine. apa dia?

Fatin : hmm. Lim Tat.

Me : (laughs) Lim Tat? mana la kau dapat nama tu.

Fatin : haha. okay apaaa.

Me : okay, okay. Lim Tat. so.. LT?

Fatin : haa. LT.

Me : LRT jelah senang. LT mcm pelik ah. tergeliat lidah nak sebut.

Fatin : haa, okay. LRT.

Both : (smile, satisfied)

so, there we go. LRT it is. haha, bodoh.

okay, so sambung from yesterday. he sat right next to me. dia ada la cakap cakap sikit. he sat at the back tu sebab he wants to study Biology during kuliah Chemistry. sebab at that time, Biology's Assessment Test was around the corner. selamba dia je.

okay, so that's the first time duduk sebelah dia. second time is the time, where everything fell exactly where i want it to be. hehe.

he masuk DK. terus duduk right next to me. Hidung was out of his way, Hidung's friends were out of his way. everyone was out of his way. macam semua tau yg LRT akan walk in through that door and head for the seat right next to mine. so, semua ke tepi, memberi laluan. HAHAHAHA.

and so, duduk la dia kat situ. we talked at every chance we have. actually, we only talk when he ask me something. and i liked it ;p

and then, kuliah habis. but then after that, there's an extra kuliah. padahal at that time, dah pukul 4. which is our official dismissal time. but for Bio students, there's extra lecture on that day. so, i stayed. but LRT and Hidung dah gerak gerak dah. and then, LRT ni dah angkat bag. rasa mcm nak merayu je suruh dia duduk lah balik. jangan ponteng. stay seated right next to me. HAHA. but memang tak ah. buat cool sudaa.

LRT : awak, jom.

Me : pegi mana?

LRT : balik ah. balik bilik.

Me : eh, ada kuliah laa.

LRT : alaa, jom ah.

Me : eh tkpe laa.

LRT : jom ah. masuk bilik.

Me : wow.

LRT : hah? nak? jom ah.

Me : wow. haha. tknk la. tkpe. pegi laa.

LRT : okay lah. bye.

Me : bye. *did he just say "bye"?*

mcm tk percaya je he actually said bye. okay, and then he went. and so i thought, habis lah. that was it. my only moments with him. dah habis. finito. then, lecturer pun masuk. and then, boleh dgr lah pintu DK tu kuek, kuek sebab orang masuk. konon konon yang tadi keluar tu semua baru realize memang betul ada kuliah sebab tadi bajet sure tk sure ada ke tak. so, masuk lah balik. i keep turning everytime the door squeaks. mana la tau, LRT nak masuk balik. but, no hope. mmg tak laa. after a while, i start ignoring the squeaks. bukan dia akan masuk pun.

tetiba, ada la this one squeak. dah lama dah squeak, tapi orangnya tk masuk masuk pulak? ramai yg tadi turned to look pun dah turn depan balik dah. so, i took a chance. i turned. tk nampak pape. or sesiape kat pintu tu. it's open but tkde orang. ahh sudah! dah la masuk lambat. nak intip intip pulak. masuk jelah. and then i see some spikes of hair. it looks familiar. tengok punya tengok. laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. it's him. LRT. dia pun masuk laa. diikuti dengan Hidung. and Hidung's friends. dah masuk selamba tu. dengan selamba jugak la dia duduk balik in his spot, right next to mine. and i felt myself giggling. AGAIN -_-

LRT : hi :)

Me : hi :)

LRT : (taking out notes and stuff)

Me : kata nak balik? kenapa dtg balik?

LRT : entah. diorang ni ah tadi nak sgt keluar.

Me : hmm. yelahh. *i'm just glad you're back*

after an hour that felt like a minute, kuliah pun habis. i was already packed to go. saja je pack early. boleh cabut awal. so, time lecturer tgh give last points, i was looking at my bag anxiously. and then i saw it. a spider. slowly, crawling on the handle of my bag. please la jgn lompat masuk, please la jgn lompat masuk. plup! the spider lompat jugak masuk in my bag. ahhh. shit! and then, i was checking the inside of my bag for it. tp takut takut. so, pegang bag pun mcm cubit cubit kat tepi tepi. time ni orang lain tgh sibuk kemas kemas, nk keluar dah.

LRT : awak. kenapa ni?

Me : ada spider masuk.

LRT : hah? mana ada.

Me : ehh. ada laa. saya tau laa. saya nampak dia lompat masuk td.

LRT : eishh (sambil belek belk my bag)

Me : dia kat dlm la. dh kat bwh kot.

LRT : (seluk sampai bawah) tkde pun?

Me : adaaa. (dh malas. so, i began carrying my bag. tp mcm tknk bawak. bawak tapi jauh jauh from my body)

LRT : (chuckles) tkde pape laa.

Me : ada. (mampus kau lah)

LRT : tukar bag lah? awak bawak bag saya. saya bawak bag awak.

Me : hah? tukar bag?

LRT : haa. nak?

Me : hmm, meh. (already offering my hand for his bag)

LRT : (smiling. and grab my bag)

tetiba, ada je orang nk inter-frame from bawah.

Dude001 : haaa, Amm. kau buat apa tu?

LRT : (gelak gelak)

Dude001 : apa kau buat ni Amm. apa jelah kau ni.

LRT : (gelak. and then handing me my bag.)

so, automatically, i handed him his. and ada la mcm dissapointed jugak. sebok je orang orang kat bawah ni. diam sudah la. and then he already walked away to the door. i was a bit slow. yelah, bag dh la berat, terpaksa bawak jauh jauh from body lagi. haih. finally, sampai pun kat pintu. all i was thinking about was how the day was filled with LRT. HAHAHA. then kat luar, i heard his voice calling me. scanned for him. rupa rupanya dia kat tepi pintu je. walked with me skejap. then, he asked for my numb. i gave it to him while he offered to carry my bag sebab nampak mcm terseksa sgt agaknya nk bawak bag berat yg ada spider tu while punching in my number in his phone. HAHA. and while we walked together tu, from DK to our blocks (well, he was heading to the cafe, but whatever. same direction), i know, banyak mata mata yg memandang. yang berani tegur pun cuma his friends je. tegur pun nk tanya nk lepak mana time tu. and LRT would be saying "Cafe A, Cafe A! Bang Din"

i was too tired of the day. all i could think about was nak shower bila sampai bilik nanti. and how i'll break this good news to my roommates. HAHAHA. finally, some improvement between me and LRT.

it was a good day. indeed, a good one :)

little things

okayy. nak bukak cerita KMP dah ni. and very anxious about it. hee.

if korang noticed la kan, before this, i had a post about matrics life. not really life tp mcm tu lah. yg pasal cuci cuci mata semua tu. okayyy. this here, would be the sambungan for it.

first of all, the classmate i was talking about. the one with pretty face, damn smart tp tk pandang perempuan tu.. has already been nicknamed. by who? by us laa. the girls. haha. it's me, Yana (classmate), Yana's friend, Shaz (other class), Fatin (classmate) and ada la some others yg knows about it also tp the one who actually came up with the name was Shaz and Yana i think? it's Along. why Along? entah la, i have no clue jugak. i think because he's smart kot? and he actually does pandang perempuan okay! normal guy. tp dia tk layan. tp dia main mata. and when he bat that eyelashes of his.. fuhh! Aphrodite pun kalah *tipu lah Aphrodite pun boleh kalah?* okay, so that's one.

and then, the Iranian dude. i'm still not sure whether or not he's Iranian. but i don't think he's a Kelantanese. okay, tu memang i'm sure. not a Kelantanese. probably from Kedah. and his name isn't Wan. people just call him that as a short form of his name which is not, i repeat, not Wan. or even starts with Wan. ahaha. but now, he's not that appealing anymore. he's still handsome but not attractive dah. hahaha.

and now. the ultimate one. the rebellious one. the one.

it's SI!

ahaa. i mentioned him too. in the last blog. he's the one yg asked me "melayu ke cina?" and then we never spoke to each other since that. and we eyed each other in DK. okay, well. that whole eye-ing each other finally paid off *like as if i was eye-ing him for something? whatthe?*

hahaha. okay. in conclusion. we're friends now. since the election for JPP, he always sits in front with the chosen JPP tu, which is also a friend of mine. i moved to the back row in the DK konon konon nak dekat dengan dia, tiba tiba dia pulak duduk depan. nak join JPP dude tu. okay, so buat bodoh jelah kan. tkkan la sampai mcmtu sekali nak kejar dia. so, he sits in front kat bawah sana, i sit on the top. and usually besides me, mesti Hidung punya spot. don't ask me why his nick is Hidung. please. Hidung is a friend of SI, they're not close. i don't think so. but they are friends. Hidung has two close friends and so, the three spots beside me tu memang selalu occupied by them. kalau tk tiga tiga tu pun. at least Hidung! dia mesti next to me. we sit together in DK, bump into each other pun a lot. my favourite spot in library is close to his but TAK PERNAH tegur. tk pernah! langsung! i've tried smiling at him once. he smiled back tp mcm shocked je. padahal sebenarnya kalau he's open to me like when he's with his friends, we could've been close friends by now. rapat sangat dah. because selalu sangat jumpa. like whereever he is, kat situ lah jugak i'll be.

alright, enough about Hidung. back to SI.

one hot day, we had to go for kuliah. so, masuk lah DK. i sat in my spot, my favourite spot lah. and Hidung's not there yet. tengah panas panas tu, aircond dlm DK tu rasa mcm jalan tk jalan je, so, i reached for my kipas in my bag. and begin kipas-ing myself. JPP lalu (he has a name tp tkkan nk tulis kan? nickname belum ada lg although we always call him Shaz's Along ; abang Shaz because they kinda look alike). he lalu tu sebab tgh sebok sebok, borak borak dgn semua orang, sebab lecturer pun blm masuk, awal lagi. so, he must've put his bag down there and then jalan jalan sampai ke atas ni.

JPP : Amelyaaa.. wehh, kipas aku skali. aku pun panas.

Me : aku pun panas ni..

JPP : aku tau. nampak kau kipas laju je. sini sket ah.. panas jugak ni

Me : yelah yelah. sini laa.. tkkan aku nak pegi sana

(dia pun dtg lah, duduk beside me. i start kipas kipas for two people terus)

JPP : haaa. ni baru lah sedap sikit. sejuk je.

Me : ahh, sudah la kau. penat aku.

JPP : eh, sini ah sket. baru boleh rasa mcm anak raja.

Me : anak raja lah pulakk

JPP : ehh, betul lah. aku anak raja tau. ada la kerabat kerabat sket.

Me : dah start dah gebang dia

(SI masuk DK. i saw him and was hoping he would see me. time ni Hidung dah ada dah kat sebelah. layan JPP ni jugak. and finally.. SI spotted me. kipas-ing his friend, the JPP. he stared while i buat bodoh)

SI : amboi Dam..

JPP : hahaha. asal? aku panas, dia ada kipas. sekali je ah.

Me : (continue kipas-ing ; buat buat tk dengar their conversation)

SI : eh. awak, awak.

Me : ye?

SI : jangan layan dia tu, bahaya.

Me : bahaya ke? biasa je.

JPP : haaa. kau tengok. biasa je. kau gelabah pahal?

(semua dah gelak gelak. JPP, Hidung, Hidung's friends SI and Me. and then, SI took his bag from his spot kat bawah tu, pindah naik atas. two seats from me. sebelah Hidung je.)

SI : awak, lepas awak kipas dia. awak duduk sini, kipas saya pulak. boleh?

Me : (too mesmerized to think properly) boleh. tkde masalah.

SI : (talking to Hidung) haa. kau tgk. dia dh terpikat kat aku pada pandangan pertama.

(and then, gelak gelak again. tergolek golek this time. SI and Hidung jelah)

Me : (ouch. he noticed!)

JPP : awak jgn layan sgt dia tu.

Me : (yeah right, jangan layan pebenda, dah mesmerized td) ohh. kenapa?

JPP : dia tu perogol sikit

Me : WHATTT? (gila pe mamat ni?)

JPP : hahaha. tkde ah, dia ni perogol bersiri dan playboy bersiri.

Me : ohh. hahahaha. tau tau.

JPP : hah? tau? mcm mana tau?

Me : tgk muka pun tktau.

JPP : wow (muka astonished gila)

okay sampai situ je lah conversation yg boleh disiarkan secara terang terang. haha. after that, kuliah dah nak start. SI switch places with Hidung. so, he was close. very close. just right beside me :)

you can take the girl out of KL, but you can never take KL out of the girl.

finally, UPS dah habis. and i'm home :D weeeee.

HAHAHA.

tktau la kenapa tp rasa mcm happy gila pulak dah samapi rumah. padahal kalau boleh nak stay lama lama kat college. i even signed up to do volunteer work for the KAKOM business at my college. but then, last minute, cancel. so, kena lah balik.

okay, agenda for this two weeks mid-sem break. hmm, nothing yet. so far, still free. which is a good thing i guess. time kat KMP, tktau la kenapa, but all i could think about when i think of KL is Pavilion. kalau tk Pavilion, The Curve, IKEA and Alamanda. even KLCC crossed my mind! tu tandanya apa? tu tandanya tk rindu KL, rindu shopping je. okay, fine. tipu lah kalau cakap rindu shopping je. padahal pernah je pergi keluar ke Jitra Mall tu. siap tengok movie lagi. two in a row! haha, marathon terus kat situ. but still tk terubat rindu. so, memang rindu KL lah kot. kalau tk pegi tempat tempat berikut pun tkpe, dapat shopping, jalan kat KL ni pun dah boleh dah. fuh! okay, tk sabar ni. however, all shoping activities or rather, window-shopping activities kena tunggu jap sebab badan still penat from carrying luggage semalam. eheh. but apa apa pun, shopping akan dijalankan. mark my words. HAHA.

and also, kalau jadi, and hopefully this time it will jadi, my daddy is coming home. big grin. can't wait to see him. can't wait sangat sangat. then, maybe when it's time for me to go back to college, he can come along or better yet, hantarkan terus! tk payah naik flight, roadtrip je terus ke Perlis. with my daddy :D

okay, a bit of an update of KMP life. sikit je nak cerita ni. sebab, nak cerita panjang panjang kena buat another post. so.. here goes.

ehh. tk jadi laa. HAHAHA. in later post, i'll tell everything.

till then, ciao.

S.O.S

i'm shit desperate to go back. just to be there for the cheercomp. bukan pasal cheercomp sangat pun. just nak jumpa orang. ramai orang. orang orang that i left. orang orang that i promised to meet at cheercomp. i'm sorry guys. really, i am. i wanna come home, tapi tk boleh. sorry. soooo sorry. and ahaha, of course, all the best to Xavier and Adele too. i miss all of you guys. and you know who you are.

P/S: kalau ada sesiapa nak sponsor me balik, sila sila lah bgtau. ahaha. i doubt lah ada orang yg sebaik tu :r

bila nak merdeka ni?

last night, ada Assessment Test for bio. it wasn't hard but entah. mcm tk sedap hati je. on Tuesday nanti ada Assessment Test for chem pulak. aduhhhh. pecah la kepala. and there's the KAKOM business lagi. shit lah. on the 13th until 15th, ada UPS, which is the Semester Exam. HAHAHAHA. boleh jadi gila mcm ni.

one thing i've come to realize since i'm here in KMP, is that i'm not that dependent. i am somewhat independent jugak. HAHA. boleh je. because i realized, everyone is leaving me. here, the people here. in KMP. mcm one by one is going out, leaving me. going to a 2-year programme lah, UiTM lah, JPA offer lah, Maktab offer lah. mcm mcm.

so, in the end, all the friends that i've come across with, made connection with, are all drifting away. memang lah ada number semua, but alahai, kenal pun baru sebulan, how much sangat lah can i hold on to the "keep in touch tau?" promise?

so, yeah. a lot of those are happening now. dah la i'm practically left by my KL friends. well, actually, i left them lah. tapi sebab jauh sangat ke apa entah, tiba tiba mcm lose contact with them jugak. dah made new friends kat sini, diorang pulak leaving.

ahhhh, shit.

whatever lah. my muscles are too sore, and my brain is too messy to think about people drifting out of my life. maybe it's just something everyone has to experience in life?

yeah, maybe.

okay, dah penat. i'll update more, later. ciao :D

matriculation life.

ahhh. setelah sekian lama *cewahh*, eh tapi sebenarnya tkde la lama kot? almost a month. haaa. dah dekat sebulan kat KMP tu, now baru i get the chance to give an update on it.

okay, perkara pertama yg i find soooooooo bizzare is the fact that one of my roommates, yg katilnya sebelah mine je (the closest one lah, sebab the other two is on the other side of the room) is my school mate from primary school! yes! from SK Convent Bukit Nanas (2) tu. haha. benda tu memang lah kelakar yg teramat amat. padahal time sekolah dulu, tk pernah kawan pun. i mean, we both know each other. i know she exists, she knows i exist. mcm tu jelah. tiba tiba, masuk matriks, jadi roommate? whatthehell?

okay, enough about roomates. so, dekat sini, dah terang terang lah nampak kann, my roomie tu orang KL. well, no actually, she's Selangor i guess. ampang? ahh, apa apa jelah. another two of my roommates tu are from Kedah. so, two of us are from KL, another two of us are from Kedah. puas lah everyone nak understand each other. haha. but so far, we're good.

studying here felt good. tkde lah amazing, but i kinda like it. especially time kuliah. i don't really like tutorials. sebab tutorial tu kena sit with our own tutorial group kan? which consist of what? maybe about 20-30 of us? okay, tk sampai lah 30 kot? but mcm tu lah. mcm class. but time kuliah, duduk je kat mana mana, dgn whoever we want. tu yang best :D and of course, dah masuk dewan kuliah, mata pun dicuci :D

cuci cuci mata ni memang selalu sangat lah dijalankan sejak masuk KMP ni. tapi time kuliah la best kot? sebab dah ada specific people yang i spotted. like there's this one guy. of course nama tk boleh la nk expose kat sini, nickname pun tk boleh kot? takut nanti ada je yg TERbaca and TERkenal dia. but his initials are SI. haaaa. tu his initials lah. tk masuk nama bapak. he's sort of a rebel. always late for lectures, kalau tk late pun, punctual gila habis ah. lecture start pukul 9am, dia masuk lecture hall pukul 8:59:59am. hahaha. bangang je mamat ni. and he would talk, and joke around all the way through the lecture. most probably be chewing something, or sucking on a Choki Choki. and then kena panggil ngan lecturer pun boleh buat cool lagi. HAHA. so, actually i don't know why la i find him appealing. tkkan i like him because of his rebellious-ness tu? maybe because when i was still new there (in KMP), time belum kenal sesiapa pun lg, i went to the library. alone. my friends were joining me a bit later. dia tegur time tu. he asked me "melayu ke cina ni?" to me. and i was with my earphones semua, gelabah la nak bukak bukak. and then i asked back "huh? bio?" and he shook his head with that cute expression and cakap balik "tak tak. melayu ke cina?" and i realized that he's kinda cute and terus mcm struggling to answer him "ohh. melayu laa." and he raised his head nak tunjuk mcm he got it and then he nodded cakap "ohh. bagus." and then terus blah.

apa motif dia? tktau laa. but since that day, dh tk pernah cakap lagi dgn dia. but recently, we've been eye-ing each other in kuliah *tk boleh blah. i know*

and then, there's other guys. of course. sorang classmate, first tgk dia, ingatkan dia ni jenis pretty face yg don't bother about a thing except for his looks and girls, tapi tak. dia ni rajin, pandai. pegi library pun duduk sorang sorang. buat kerja sendiri. orang yg join dia. girls pun tk berapa dia nk pandang. girls je selalu scream out his name out of random. dia pun jalan buat control macho jelah. mind you, i'm not one of the girls tu. and there's a guy yg muka mcm mixed. ala ala Iranian. eh, Iranian ke? entah. but muka mcm Sheikh2 or Syed2 mcm tu laa. that's what i thought. until i heard one of friends ckp his name started with Wan. org Kelantan ke? tktau la. abaikan je. and there's another guy from accounts course. tp he's like an old flame kot? haha. entah la. nowadays nampak dia, dh tk rasa sgt dh excitement, biasa biasa je. mcm player kot dia tu? i heard he uses the same line he used on me to all the girls that he tried to ayat. so, no comments.

hmm. so far, mcm tu lah. life's not great, but i don't hate it. in fact, mcm suka. i wanna see how long i'd last. yg buat sakit hati, sakit otak, sakit jantung is only my SK017. which is Chemistry. ishh. kalau benda tu a living thing, dah lama dah kubunuh. i don't really get why most of the people here, yang dah biasa dgn asrama-life, yang first time duduk asrama, yg from KL, JB or even dekat je kat Kedah or even Kangar, are homesick! semua tk sabar nak balik. sikit sikit nak balik. am i the only one yg tk miss home? haih. dah lah. malas cakap pasal benda ni. benda ni kang kalau dah bukak, panjang lebar ulasan yang akan diberi. so, sampai sini jelah.

oh btw, KMP tu Kolej Matrikulasi Perlis laa. it's in Arau. not in Kangar. ARAU.

okay, ciao!

home at last!

aha. i'm finally home. yes, home. in KL.

Home Sweet Home.

now, baru lah i take those three words above seriously. bukan apa, dulu pun pernah cakap. but only after a long day of shopping and whatnot. but this time. this time, almost a month tk jejak kaki masuk rumah. when my mom turned at the corner to get into this place pun rasa mcm awkward dah. ingat memang ingat. tp pelik. lepas tu, tadi masuk rumah pun rasa mcm pelik je kat kaki. yelah kannn. kat KMP tu, masuk bilik, lantai simen je, sejuk dan kasar (but my roomie and i shared our money to buy tikar getah from our koperasi. enough to cover a small portion of our room. pape jelah.)but then, tadi, masuk rumah, lantai tk kasar. tk licin. lantai warna putih, suci, murni. bukan warna kelabu simen tu. haaaa. selama ni, tk pernah homesick, tetiba tadi bila masuk, rasa mcm nak sujud, cium lantai rumah ni. HAHA. i'm not saying that i am homesick. tp macam rindu lah pulak.

not good.

i'm only here for a while. Sunday dh nak kena balik. flight dah la awal. pukul 7.15am dh berlepas. shit. so, i better get a hold of myself. takut nanti, terus tk balik balik pulak ke KMP tu. okay, enough about homesick issues.

moving on.

so, tadi, to get here from KMP, i rode a cab from KMP to bus station in Kangar. lepas tu apa lagi, naik bus lah. gerak at 6.30pm, sampai KL around 2.30am. ahaha. cun tak? first time bhai naik bus sorang sorang. dah la bus tu kosong. tkdela kosong, tapi the passengers tk sampai pun 10 orang. ye, betul. tk tipu. sejuk yg teramat. dh la tk bawak blk sweater. bangang je. nk tidur pun tk selesa. but anyways, i survived. it wasn't that bad. i'd do it again if i have to.

oh right, from KMP to the bus station to Kangar tu tk lama pun. ada la about 10-15 minutes. naik 2 orang. sebab entah mamat mana tah (KMP student jugak lah) pun balik today (Thursday). padahal pakcik teksi tu is mine. HAHAHA. not mine lah tp i called him. tiba tiba dia nak join pulak. but i guess it's fine lah kot because the pakcik teksi had to wait for me to bersiap *poyo lah jadi perempuan. haha* so, when i reached the gate from my dorm tu, the pakcik dh lama tunggu lah (entah berapa round lah chess game yg dia main) and this guy was also there. so, fine. naik lah skali. murah sikit tambangnya. haha. he paid RM10, i paid RM2 sebab tkde small change. and then later, i paid back to him the RM4. my bus pukul 6.30pm, his is at 8.00pm. entah apa jadahnya dia dtg awal awal to that place entah. so i sat with him while waiting for my bus. he's a Kelantanese. he's going back because of his brother's wedding this Saturday. and he's probably coming back on Tuesday! lama gila cuti. siot je mamat ni. siap nak MC semua. haha. whatever. and then, the conversation mcm ended. when we talked, it wasn't awkward tapi mcm both of us wanna keep it short. so, i don't know his name, he doesn't know mine. i don't think he looks familiar, so i'm guessing he's one of the first intakes and dia budak accounts kot? most probably laa. boleh tahan jugak la his looks. not enough to make me spot him if we were in our cafe (cafes in our campus tu la) but since i was talking to him kan, i thought he was okay laa. definitely not ugly or anything near that. his style? no comments. all i know is, i liked his shoes. hehe. and he was nice. i told him i'm completely clueless about this whole taking a bus home. and he helped me through. padahal dia pun first timer. so, nice la tu. baik la tu.

okay dah. sampai sini je. nak lie down lah. penat pulak. later, i'll post about KMP lagi.

ohhh. baru perasan. you guys are probably wondering why i'm home anyway kan? haaa. keep on wondering lah. because i don't feel like telling pulak. ahaha. ciao!