her

i know i shouldn't but i did it anyways.


i got jealous when u told me about your ex. also known as your former lover. i know it was a long time ago. and i know it's been a while that u guys have spoken to each other but.. i still do feel jealous. and i guess a bit sad. should i? this should be normal right? tell me this is normal. and tell me that this would pass.


idk how u felt when u knew about mine but i was fine when u first told me about your ex. i just realize it now. i realized that i'm a bit bothered by it.


i don't like this feeling. i don't wanna care about it. but i do. i don't wanna think about it. but i do.


i guess i have to be stronger to just ignore this one and move on. i'm sure it's nothing. maybe i'm just bored and have nothing else to think about -_-"

bliss

a new Hijr yeas has downed upon us all. and soon, 2012 is coming too.


i realized that throughout this whole year, a lot of shits happened. i lost a lot of people; people that used to be in my life, that used to mean so much, that i used to love so much. i lost them. not in the term that they passed away. although, there were a couple of people i know passed away (may they rest in peace). but no. i lost those people from my life as in.. that person isn't the person anymore. i'd say they changed. but i'm sure i did too. oh well. things change. people change.


but still, i'm thankful. thankful for all the memories i had with them. it was nice when it was nice. and i guess, like most things in life.. even nice moments have expiry dates. so, it was nice while it lasted.


i've lost some people. but i've gotten to know new ones. and not all the new ones are pleasant. but i'm glad it happened the way it did. i know He has something good planned out for me. so, let the past be the past and keep moving forward.


all those hard moments that happened, i wish i could look back at them and flip them and say "hah! i survived that shit! what now?"
i believe in Allah. and i trust him to guide me through whatever. it's just that sometimes, things get so hard that i lost my grip. i'd forget that what happened, happened for something good later.


all in all, i just feel thankful for everything that i have now. i have enough clothes to put on, enough food to feed my hunger, a roof above my head. not forgetting my irreplaceable family. super-cool friends, and lastly.. an awesome boyfriend. i have all i need at the moment. and i hope it stays this way forever, insyaAllah :)