cut the crap!

There's this thing that has been going on for a while between me and guys. And all this time, I took it lightly and decided not to pay much attention to it. But today, it has reached the point where I feel like it has got to stop.

Seriously needed to be stopped cos I found myself crying because of it.

Ok so straight to the point is.. Guys are always getting the idea that I am a "budak bandar". City girl. Budak KL. And yes, they're right. I am. I was born in a city, raised in a big city. Safe to say, I was born & bred in the city, yes. I am  your so-called "budak bandar", your so-called city girl, your so-called budak KL.

But fuck u all if u think I don't have a big heart, or big dreams to be achieved, or any empathy towards others. Go screw yourselves.

Just because I was raised in a city, u think I'm a bitch? Wait, isn't that like assuming my parents are a bunch of assholes because u think I'm a bitch? So.. I must not be raised well. Typical city girl. Typical uptown girl with her money and big cars.

Well, guess what? My mom wasn't a city girl. So.. she raised me up with a lot of dignity. She thaught me how to socialize with EVERYBODY WITH EQUALITY AND NO JUDGING. So, I'm thinking.. maybe if being a city girl that I am means I am thaught to treat everyone the same and never assume, ok then. I am a city girl and proud of it.

Major problem here now is just that guys from not so "city-ish" places tend to feel inferior of me and then they make so many excuses that make me feel suicidal cos I'm THAT bad.

Example 1:

"yelah, u budak KL, budak bandar. mesti la u takkan suka laki mcm i"

Example 2:

"u tak kisah ke naik kereta dgn i ni? yelah, kereta ni kecik je. u kan nak jaga standard. budak bandar kan"

U know what? I'm sick of all these kind of bullshit. So, instead of u guys just man up and be confident about yourself, u put the fucking blame on me? We're not gonna work out because I'm the "budak bandar" and I'm the one making such a fuss? Most of the time, it's the guys! I never give a shit about who's driving what or who's paying what. It's u guys who are sooo insecure!

I mean.. if u were really so repulsing for me, why would I even talk to u in the first place? Did u ever ask yourselves that? I could've just said "ughh why are u even talking to me. stop breathing my air." when we first met if I was that bitchy of a city girl.

Dumbasses. Dumbasses everywhere.