isn't it funny that when we wanna break up with someone, the thing that popped in our mind is probably..
"sorry dude, you're not good enough for me" or "sorry babe, you're not good enough for me".
itu initially. but before we say those words, mesti kita akan fikir balik.. "wait, was i good enough for him/her?" haaaa. lepastu baru la nak start evaluate our ownselves. and sometimes we realize that he/she is sooooo much better than us. and sometimes we think they deserve better than us too, sebab kita pun takde la perfect sgt. tapi this is the common situations laa.
ada jugak situations when memang we are aware that WE ARE BETTER than them. dah kalau diorang terang-terang curang or whatever, then, we won't have any problem lah to say "you're not good enough for me" kan? or some people yg memang jenis perasan hebat and perasan perfect tu.. haa, tu lain kes sikit la. kalau yg jenis mcmtu, memang setiap kali break-up, the partner je akan disalahkan and memang takkan hesitate lah to say "sorry la, you're just not good enough for me". itu lain kes, lain kali baru kita buat lain punya cerita. sambung balik cerita tadi..
i guess what i'm trying to say here is just.. the common thing yg we always hear during break-ups like, "it's not you, it's me" or "i'm sorry. this is for the better" or kata-kata lain yg kononnya sopan tu pada mulanya takde la sopan. mula-mula mesti orang yg nak break tu fikir lain actually. they wanna say something else yg bad tetapi diorang berhenti sejenak sebab terfikir pasal diri sendiri dulu. and tertanya-tanya pulak, "did i do my best in this relationship", and time tu baru nak fikir pasal salah sendiri during the relationship. when i say they actually wanna say bad things bukan lah bad things sgt yg diorang nak cakap. tapi cuba fikir, kalau org nak break, mesti ada reason kan? reason mcm "i tak happy lah dgn you" or "i suka/sayang/minat orang lain" or "i rasa kita different lah. tak serasi" or apa apa lah. so, you see? the reasons tu bukan lah kejam tapi cuba bayangkan, kalau bf/gf kita sendiri tetiba cakap mcmtu, mesti lah org yg mendengar ni tersinggung perasaan kan? haa, tu yang terfikir nak jadi sopan sikit tu. kalau ada la terfikir nak jadi sopan. kalau tak, tu taktau la. kadang-kadang tu fikir punya fikir, sampai terus tak jadi nak minta break sebab dah sedar salah sendiri and terasa mcm nak berubah and save the relationship. pulak dah.
okay, jap. now, i don't know why i'm talking about this issue. i guess.. it just popped in my head lah kot. and yes, memang post ni mcm a bit vague and confusing. even i, myself don't understand what i'm crapping about.
oh well.
Thursday, June 16, 2011
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
put a sock in it!
a few things bothered me these days. and benda yang paling obvious, paling selalu occur lah kan time-time cuti ni.. is how guys always stressing on about me learning how to cook.
i mean.. seriously, who the hell do you guys think you are? kalau korang tu bapak aku, takpe lah jugak. ayah aku sendiri pun kadang-kadang ajak jugak aku berjinak-jinak kat dapur tu. tapi gasak lah kan. dia ayah aku. and he cooks up really tasty meals too. so.. bila dia sebok sebok suruh aku "tengok ni, papa ajar mcm mana nak buat kari".. i don't really protest. because i know that he's not asking me to cook for his own benefit. he just wants me to cook for my own benefit. so that later on, in my life, i'll know how to survive. and even kalau dia memang ajar aku masak for his own benefit, then, so be it lah! dia ayah aku. i am totally fine with cooking for my dad. i mean all this while, he's been cooking for me kan? *by the way, mama, jasamu tetap dikenang. mama masak pun sedap. since i'm talking about guys here.. mama punya part tak masuk byk sgt lah okay?*
now, korang yang supposedly "my friends" ni kan.. boleh la stop with all this shit okay? i know why you're always bringing it up. sebab kononnya i should learn how to cook, so i can cook for my husband kan? ehh tolonglah. give me a break.
korang ke yg nak jadi laki aku? tak kan? ke korang memang dah plan nak buat aku jadi bini korang? kalau ye, memang aku reject awal awal ni lah, gila. belum apa apa lagi, dah nak mengarah aku buat itu ini. belum tunang, belum couple, belum apa.. dah suruh aku belajar masak? pegi jalan laa weh. nak buat buat manja pulak, konon nak makan benda aku masak. aishh, muak aku dengar. kalau betul aku handal bab bab memasak ni pun, belum tentu lagi kau dapat merasa. bukan kita tinggal sebumbung ke apa yg kau nak merasa makanan aku masak.
jadi, sesiapa yang terasa tu, ambik jelah sebijik ye. bukan nak kurang ajar ke apa, tapi seriously la kawan, benda ni memang sumpah bapak annoying gila. dalam bahasa lain, a real royal pain in the ass. don't get me wrong. i would love to learn how to cook. tapi bila benda tu budak lelaki yang suruh, dengan alasan "nanti kan nak jadi bini orang".. aku memang naik minyak la. aku tak pernah pulak bercita cita nak kahwin pastu jadi kuli batak orang. aku nak belajar masak ke apa ke biar kat aku lah. and aku tak pernah pun terfikir "aku ni bengap kalau pasal memasak. tak lama lagi nak kahwin. so, aku kena la belajar masak. nanti boleh masak sedap sedap untuk laki aku"
-______________________-" MEMANG TAK PERNAH LA WEH.
hopefully, sesiapa yang terbaca ni and terasa, jgn la get offended sangat okay. and trust me, as hard as it is to believe, a lot, i repeat, A LOT of you guys do this. tolong lah, stop it. insyaAllah, KALAU aku kahwin, laki tu akan paham yang aku bukan chef terkemuka dunia. setakat masak air boleh la. and kalau laki tu tak faham, kitorang takkan kahwin pun. so.. why don't you guys take care of yourselves, and i'll try to take good care of mine alright?
i mean.. seriously, who the hell do you guys think you are? kalau korang tu bapak aku, takpe lah jugak. ayah aku sendiri pun kadang-kadang ajak jugak aku berjinak-jinak kat dapur tu. tapi gasak lah kan. dia ayah aku. and he cooks up really tasty meals too. so.. bila dia sebok sebok suruh aku "tengok ni, papa ajar mcm mana nak buat kari".. i don't really protest. because i know that he's not asking me to cook for his own benefit. he just wants me to cook for my own benefit. so that later on, in my life, i'll know how to survive. and even kalau dia memang ajar aku masak for his own benefit, then, so be it lah! dia ayah aku. i am totally fine with cooking for my dad. i mean all this while, he's been cooking for me kan? *by the way, mama, jasamu tetap dikenang. mama masak pun sedap. since i'm talking about guys here.. mama punya part tak masuk byk sgt lah okay?*
now, korang yang supposedly "my friends" ni kan.. boleh la stop with all this shit okay? i know why you're always bringing it up. sebab kononnya i should learn how to cook, so i can cook for my husband kan? ehh tolonglah. give me a break.
korang ke yg nak jadi laki aku? tak kan? ke korang memang dah plan nak buat aku jadi bini korang? kalau ye, memang aku reject awal awal ni lah, gila. belum apa apa lagi, dah nak mengarah aku buat itu ini. belum tunang, belum couple, belum apa.. dah suruh aku belajar masak? pegi jalan laa weh. nak buat buat manja pulak, konon nak makan benda aku masak. aishh, muak aku dengar. kalau betul aku handal bab bab memasak ni pun, belum tentu lagi kau dapat merasa. bukan kita tinggal sebumbung ke apa yg kau nak merasa makanan aku masak.
jadi, sesiapa yang terasa tu, ambik jelah sebijik ye. bukan nak kurang ajar ke apa, tapi seriously la kawan, benda ni memang sumpah bapak annoying gila. dalam bahasa lain, a real royal pain in the ass. don't get me wrong. i would love to learn how to cook. tapi bila benda tu budak lelaki yang suruh, dengan alasan "nanti kan nak jadi bini orang".. aku memang naik minyak la. aku tak pernah pulak bercita cita nak kahwin pastu jadi kuli batak orang. aku nak belajar masak ke apa ke biar kat aku lah. and aku tak pernah pun terfikir "aku ni bengap kalau pasal memasak. tak lama lagi nak kahwin. so, aku kena la belajar masak. nanti boleh masak sedap sedap untuk laki aku"
-______________________-" MEMANG TAK PERNAH LA WEH.
hopefully, sesiapa yang terbaca ni and terasa, jgn la get offended sangat okay. and trust me, as hard as it is to believe, a lot, i repeat, A LOT of you guys do this. tolong lah, stop it. insyaAllah, KALAU aku kahwin, laki tu akan paham yang aku bukan chef terkemuka dunia. setakat masak air boleh la. and kalau laki tu tak faham, kitorang takkan kahwin pun. so.. why don't you guys take care of yourselves, and i'll try to take good care of mine alright?
ciao!
Thursday, May 19, 2011
petrified
it's finally over. the waiting, the pain and all. fuhhh. alhamdulillah, everything's done now.
i've finally graduated from that jail about a month ago and yesterday, the results were out. and thank god, i passed. homg! it's about time! now, i can spend every living moment of my holiday ni with joy and real feeling of freedom. no need to worry about anything so much. haha.
happynyaaaa. i hope it stays this way lah. i still remember, when i was crying so hard and insisted on not going there in the first place.. a friend of mine, MZHbAB was telling me that i should be strong and just do it. and he said this would just take a while and after that, everything will be happy endings for me. at that crucial time, his words were a bit soothing and as time passes by, i keep thinking of what he said and i wish he's right.
i hope.. after all the shits i've been put through, there really will be happy endings for me on the other side. i hope all the bad encounters that i had are worthwhile. damn, last year was such a blow, i'm really glad it's over.
alright. so, now. let's focus on what's coming pulak. but imma take it slow coz i still have some time to kill before i kill myself again in a brand new place later. apa apa pun, as for right now, i'm glad :)
i've finally graduated from that jail about a month ago and yesterday, the results were out. and thank god, i passed. homg! it's about time! now, i can spend every living moment of my holiday ni with joy and real feeling of freedom. no need to worry about anything so much. haha.
happynyaaaa. i hope it stays this way lah. i still remember, when i was crying so hard and insisted on not going there in the first place.. a friend of mine, MZHbAB was telling me that i should be strong and just do it. and he said this would just take a while and after that, everything will be happy endings for me. at that crucial time, his words were a bit soothing and as time passes by, i keep thinking of what he said and i wish he's right.
i hope.. after all the shits i've been put through, there really will be happy endings for me on the other side. i hope all the bad encounters that i had are worthwhile. damn, last year was such a blow, i'm really glad it's over.
alright. so, now. let's focus on what's coming pulak. but imma take it slow coz i still have some time to kill before i kill myself again in a brand new place later. apa apa pun, as for right now, i'm glad :)
ciao!
Monday, March 14, 2011
stealing a bit of time
haaa. last 2 weeks, i went out of my college (kat dpn tu je, tkde lah out mana) and had lunch with my friends. 2 different friends on 2 different days. walaumacammanapun, it was joined by AHbAA on both occassions -.-"
takpe, i haven't seen him in a while anyway.
so, thanks to MZHbAB for coming down here all the way from Kedah just to spend something like 4 hours or so with me. we talked and talked, and updated each other and last2 decided to eat. and the chocolate bar! heeee. Thank You so much.
okay, so that was last, last weekend. yesterday pulak, all of us (my classmates and i, minus 2 boys though) went to K. Perlis for dinner. it was something like our last dinner together. mcm lah sebelum ni we've had dinners together =___=
but overall, it was nice. the food lah was nice. i just liked the fact that we were able to spend some time OUT of this jail, and it was sea-side which makes it even more soothing for this sore soul of mine. and it ended with indulging in great food which contributes to the all-greatness factor. err.. the food was probably great because i was greatly-starving? okay, takpe. nevermind that. big point is, i got to enjoy the seafood without any allergy reaction coming up on me AND! i got some chocolate-covered strawberries :DD, thanks to FNIbMZ
so, cerita utk meng-update dah habis. so, i'm gonna stop here. sebaabb quite frankly, i'm out of things to write and lagipun, it's hard to get any ilham when you have to update your blog in "Bilik Siber" in your college's library. being sandwiched between other people who's using this Bilik Siber too? really? memang lah aku selesa nak update blog selalu kat sini. yg bebudak sebelah ni, peep sini, peep sana. haishh.
ciao!
takpe, i haven't seen him in a while anyway.
so, thanks to MZHbAB for coming down here all the way from Kedah just to spend something like 4 hours or so with me. we talked and talked, and updated each other and last2 decided to eat. and the chocolate bar! heeee. Thank You so much.
okay, so that was last, last weekend. yesterday pulak, all of us (my classmates and i, minus 2 boys though) went to K. Perlis for dinner. it was something like our last dinner together. mcm lah sebelum ni we've had dinners together =___=
but overall, it was nice. the food lah was nice. i just liked the fact that we were able to spend some time OUT of this jail, and it was sea-side which makes it even more soothing for this sore soul of mine. and it ended with indulging in great food which contributes to the all-greatness factor. err.. the food was probably great because i was greatly-starving? okay, takpe. nevermind that. big point is, i got to enjoy the seafood without any allergy reaction coming up on me AND! i got some chocolate-covered strawberries :DD, thanks to FNIbMZ
so, cerita utk meng-update dah habis. so, i'm gonna stop here. sebaabb quite frankly, i'm out of things to write and lagipun, it's hard to get any ilham when you have to update your blog in "Bilik Siber" in your college's library. being sandwiched between other people who's using this Bilik Siber too? really? memang lah aku selesa nak update blog selalu kat sini. yg bebudak sebelah ni, peep sini, peep sana. haishh.
ciao!
Saturday, March 5, 2011
renewed
hahaha. i actually did go out of this place tadi. bukan outing sgt pun. tgh tension2 sorang2 dalam bilik pagi2 tadi. all of a sudden, one of my friend, AAbA, who used to be so close to me.. but then kitorang mcm ada gaduh sikit kot? takde lah gaduh, but just tak bertegur for a while sebab ada misunderstanding. tiba2 he msged and asked if i want to go out and hang.
whoa?
dgn hairannya, i asked balik.. dia boleh ke outing? it's the girls' weekend. he said he already asked permission because he thought his dad was coming but tak jadi. so, he got a permission to go out and free to use it. so i thought, why not kan? dah la bosan, tension, stressed, sedih lagi dlm bilik tu. so, apa lagi. i got up and get ready and went out. we went for lunch just now and his dad called him. tetiba jadi pulak nak dtg visit him.
so, after lunch, we talked for a while. borak2 jap. yelah, lama tak sembang. so we updated each other while waiting for his dad. and terjumpa jugak dgn AHbAA while we're out tadi. so, i met both of my friends yg dulunya memang rapat gila with me. sukanyaaaa. haha. and then, when his dad was nearby, i go back to college. and singgah here, the library. haha. and updated my blog ni :)
and lepas ni pulak, my other friend yg memang planned nak visit me is coming. haha. jumpa my other friend pulak, MZHbAB. i should probably go back to my room and get myself ready. haha.
whoa?
dgn hairannya, i asked balik.. dia boleh ke outing? it's the girls' weekend. he said he already asked permission because he thought his dad was coming but tak jadi. so, he got a permission to go out and free to use it. so i thought, why not kan? dah la bosan, tension, stressed, sedih lagi dlm bilik tu. so, apa lagi. i got up and get ready and went out. we went for lunch just now and his dad called him. tetiba jadi pulak nak dtg visit him.
so, after lunch, we talked for a while. borak2 jap. yelah, lama tak sembang. so we updated each other while waiting for his dad. and terjumpa jugak dgn AHbAA while we're out tadi. so, i met both of my friends yg dulunya memang rapat gila with me. sukanyaaaa. haha. and then, when his dad was nearby, i go back to college. and singgah here, the library. haha. and updated my blog ni :)
and lepas ni pulak, my other friend yg memang planned nak visit me is coming. haha. jumpa my other friend pulak, MZHbAB. i should probably go back to my room and get myself ready. haha.
ciao!
Friday, March 4, 2011
sore soul
ohh how i love this. i love fridays. thank god for fridays. and thank you to all my lecturers for not having any extra classes this afternoon. i'm completely freeeeeeeeeeeeee :D
HAHA. happynyaa. it feels like forever since the last time i have a friday like this. where i'm free to do anything i want. i can sleep all the way to the night time. i can go eat. i can go play. i can update this freakin blog of mine. and macam macam lagi. siap sempat tgk movie lagi tadi. heh. i watched Pisau Cukur just now. and it was only because i was browsing through my friend's lappy ni and so i browsed at the movies she have. and she has some korean bits that i obviously wouldn't touch because i'm not one of those korea-maniacs. and then she has some twilights that i obviously already watch, so Pisau Cukur lah jadi pilihan hati. ngahaha.
err, i'm actually supposed to be home by now. or at least on my way home. i planned to go back this weekend. i know it's only a normal 2-day weekend but it's the last week for us to go back, and then i miss home like crazy. but due to financial crisis and also, my dad said that it wasn't worth it because it's only for a day and a half that i'd be home, i decided that i'm not going home :(
it's sad, really sad.
but! on the plus side.. a friend of mine planned to come down here to visit :D
it's been a while since the last time i saw his face, so this is pretty exciting. this visit was supposed to be accompanied by another friend of mine. but she couldn't make it due to some family reasons. haihhhh. rindu lah kat kau Yanaaa. malangnya, kau tak boleh nak show up. tapi takpe lah, family's first :)
so, there you go. after a week full of quizzes and a test. i'm finally wound up here on a free friday. totally free. and i can feel my muscles aching and my bones cracking everywhere. ughhh. i thought last week was the last of it. but nope. minggu lepas presentations and assignments. this week, quizzes and tests. minggu depan apa pulak? bak datang la wehhh. tak takut :P
bottom line is, i'm glad the weekend is here. and kalau jadi, i'll go out. but most probably takkan kot. takkan lah i wanna go out alone. my friends yang ada pun dah balik rumah diorang. haihh. but takpe, weekend sorang pun alright je ;)
HAHA. happynyaa. it feels like forever since the last time i have a friday like this. where i'm free to do anything i want. i can sleep all the way to the night time. i can go eat. i can go play. i can update this freakin blog of mine. and macam macam lagi. siap sempat tgk movie lagi tadi. heh. i watched Pisau Cukur just now. and it was only because i was browsing through my friend's lappy ni and so i browsed at the movies she have. and she has some korean bits that i obviously wouldn't touch because i'm not one of those korea-maniacs. and then she has some twilights that i obviously already watch, so Pisau Cukur lah jadi pilihan hati. ngahaha.
err, i'm actually supposed to be home by now. or at least on my way home. i planned to go back this weekend. i know it's only a normal 2-day weekend but it's the last week for us to go back, and then i miss home like crazy. but due to financial crisis and also, my dad said that it wasn't worth it because it's only for a day and a half that i'd be home, i decided that i'm not going home :(
it's sad, really sad.
but! on the plus side.. a friend of mine planned to come down here to visit :D
it's been a while since the last time i saw his face, so this is pretty exciting. this visit was supposed to be accompanied by another friend of mine. but she couldn't make it due to some family reasons. haihhhh. rindu lah kat kau Yanaaa. malangnya, kau tak boleh nak show up. tapi takpe lah, family's first :)
so, there you go. after a week full of quizzes and a test. i'm finally wound up here on a free friday. totally free. and i can feel my muscles aching and my bones cracking everywhere. ughhh. i thought last week was the last of it. but nope. minggu lepas presentations and assignments. this week, quizzes and tests. minggu depan apa pulak? bak datang la wehhh. tak takut :P
bottom line is, i'm glad the weekend is here. and kalau jadi, i'll go out. but most probably takkan kot. takkan lah i wanna go out alone. my friends yang ada pun dah balik rumah diorang. haihh. but takpe, weekend sorang pun alright je ;)
till next time, ciao.
Friday, February 25, 2011
constant target
yes! finally! all presentation shits are done :D
i hate doing presentations in front of the class. tak kisah la for what subject. even if i'm confident about what i present, or if it's just a simple analysis that i need to share with the whole class or just something yang memang aku tak faham sepatah haram pun, i DON'T like it.
tapi nasib baik lah dah habis dah segala mcm bala yg ada nih. so, now tinggal nak study study jelah. and assignments pun makin menimbun jugak. alahai. mati lahhh.
woihhh. cepat lah habis. aku nak balik rumah laa. tak tahan duduk sini. nak balik. and for those who knows me well, you would know that i'm not so much a person who gets home-sick constantly tapi this year kat sini memang sumpah la menyeksakan yang teramat. i wanna go home. i wanna finish my session here secepat mungkin.
haihh. dah laa. malas betul nak layan lara hati ni. redha jelah stuck kat sini sampai mati. HAHA, over-dramtic jap.
okay lah. kang tulis lagi panjang, lagi byk merapu pulak.
ciao!
i hate doing presentations in front of the class. tak kisah la for what subject. even if i'm confident about what i present, or if it's just a simple analysis that i need to share with the whole class or just something yang memang aku tak faham sepatah haram pun, i DON'T like it.
tapi nasib baik lah dah habis dah segala mcm bala yg ada nih. so, now tinggal nak study study jelah. and assignments pun makin menimbun jugak. alahai. mati lahhh.
woihhh. cepat lah habis. aku nak balik rumah laa. tak tahan duduk sini. nak balik. and for those who knows me well, you would know that i'm not so much a person who gets home-sick constantly tapi this year kat sini memang sumpah la menyeksakan yang teramat. i wanna go home. i wanna finish my session here secepat mungkin.
haihh. dah laa. malas betul nak layan lara hati ni. redha jelah stuck kat sini sampai mati. HAHA, over-dramtic jap.
okay lah. kang tulis lagi panjang, lagi byk merapu pulak.
ciao!
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