buzz off!

okay, so selepas about what? 4 days i didn't update? yelah kot. i feel macam banyak benda pulak nak cakap. hahaha. takde lah banyak sebenarnya, but just macam banyak pulak yang happened in that 4 days.

tapi! benda yang memang lah paling anooying and bothers me the most is the fact that my sis (adik angkat) is being distrubed by some low lives. okay, jap. before you guys get ideas yang bukan bukan, she is not like my adik angkat yang mcm i pick up from somewhere because she's cute ke apa apa. or she picked me because i'm cute ke apa apa *although maybe that's the case? hahaha*, it's a long story lah how she ended up being my adik angkat. tak long pun sbnrnya, just malas nak cerita. alright, my sis ni tinggal punya la jauhhhhh. kat puchong sana nuh! haha. and we only meet like.. err.. once a year kot? sad, i know. mcm last year, we only meet during the cheercomp. and the year before tu, ada la about twice? first, was the first time we met, and second was a dinner, with our parents involved. and her brother and my brothers. pretty much my family and her family laa. so, you should by now get the point la how VERY rare kitorang jumpa each other. bukan occasionally lagi dah, it's RARE! thank god lah there's such things like myspace and phone :r

but seriously, itu jelah the way for us to keep in touch. which is wierd i guess? sebab we grew very fond of each other. like macam we actually know each other, padahal meet pun once a year. yang lain semua online or phone. and memang the bond of sisters tu ada laa. sisters yang look out for each other and be there for each other tu. yes, i know, awwww moment. HAHA. okay, berbalik kepada cerita penting.

okay, she's been in a fight recently. with a bitch. a bitch fight. eh? ada ke such word? hahaha. entah la, whatever lah. and i don't know anything about it. all i know is that the bitch is supposedly her bestfriend. well, ex - bestfriend now. and guess what?! nama dia Amelia! adoi. Amelia jugakkkk. so, tktau la diorang gaduh sebab apa, apa story dia, and who's to blame really? i don't know. sebab tktau apa apa. but of course la i'm on my sister's side. which is so unlikely of me. sebab i don't usually do this. you know, berpihak to one side of the party without even knowing what's going on. so, i thought maybe i should hear the story first la. and then! after seeing apa yang Amelia tu is doing to my sis, rasa mcm marah pulak. so, i think, kalau i hear the whole story pun, and i think my sis yang bersalah, i think i would still be on her side. sebab that bitch tu memang jahat sangat.

okay, get this. she tried to pick a fight with my sis ni guna bulletins on myspace. Bulletins on MySpace! how attention seeking can you get with that? ohh, and not to mention, immature. seriously lah kan. kalau ye pun nak sangat bergaduh, be professional and take it outside ah *sbnrnya, kalau professional tkkan gaduh mcmni. HAHA* so yeah, this girl macam bahan bahan, kutuk kutuk my sis, using bulletin tu. and i told my sis not to layan, but being a 15 year old that she is, of course she couldn't resist. so, dia reply jugak. guna bulletin jugak. adoi. tapi macam kesian wehh. sebab this Amelia ni tktau la guna power apa but she managed to turn the whole school against my sis. so, now, semua tknk tegur dia. semua kutuk kutuk dia. and they only talk to her when Amelia's not around. jahat kan? kan kan? and then! like as if satu sekolah tu benci dia tk cukup, ada pulak yang berani gaduh gaduh dengan dia in myspace. just like Amelia did. and diorang buat mcmtu, and then Amelia would just laugh around. eeeeeeeee. gerammmmm!

i wish i could do more for her than just mcm tell her to be strong and ignore them. because mmg she's alone lah now. and nobody's fighting for her.

ughhhh. this is all very childish and i didn't intend pun nak masuk campur. but seeing her like that. hated by the whole school. actually, she said, "satu kinrara ni hates me".haaaaaa. and it's all because of that Amelia tu. eeee. this is so irritating! lepas tu if i fikir balik, pernah ke i get into this kind of things? haha. tak pernah sbnrnya! sebab everytime me and my friends gaduh, we just shut up and give cold shoulders. tk payah la sampai nak scream at each other's faces and tarik tarik rambut! *whoaaaaa*

if i was capable of driving around, with my own car, i would go to my sister's school and slap Amelia good :D

hey. how come i don't have a posse to break Amelia's face? hmm, good idea. i'll go look for my people *whoa? my people?* ahaha. and then, when we're big enough, i'll break her :)

cliff diving anyone?

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omg!

HAHAHA. sumpah tak tahan okay. nak tengok New Moon. waaaaaaa. kenapa lambat sangat? November 20th? shit. sumpah lama gila babi. tu pun entah betul ke tak date dia. maybe it'd be later for Malaysian audiences. oh. my. god. tak tahannnnnn.

first of all, there's the thirst on watching Edward Cullen again a.k.a Robert Pattinson *thirst? wahh. dah terikut ikut ni. ngahaha.* and then, there's the hot Jacob Black in action on motorcycles which contribute even more to his hotness and he's going to start phasing into a you-know-what *takkan nak cakap kot? i don't wanna ruin the suprise. hehe* so, he'd be tough and all shit like that.

like Oh.. My.. God! do i even have to say more. oh! oh! and then, there'll be the pack! yeah, the wolf pack that i've posted on here a while ago. tu pun hot jugakkkkkk. wahh. mati nak tunggu lama lama. cepat lah keluar, cepat lah keluar! padahal buku tu pun belum habis baca lagi. wahaha. almost lah okay! tinggal beberapa chaps je lagi. maybe about 3-5. i'll finish tonight.

Serene! thanks to you, i'm sucked in into this whole Twilight Saga thingie and wishing for it to be real and addicted for more. AGAIN! i was like this before. it was after Twilight, a while ago. and then, after the book, and after seeing the movie. stop sekejap. and then i started reading Breaking Dawn which threw me off guard again. i used to keep in mind that those things exist. and i wished it does too! lepas tu dah habis baca. after a while, i was normal again. NOW! oh tidakkkk. dah mula dahhh. addicted semula. i hate the fact that i'm like this but at the same time, i don't wanna it to stop? heh. make sense ke ni? HAHAHA.

kalau New Moon tu tak keluar kat Malaysia ke apa nanti, i'd jump off a cliff! HAHAHA. eh tak, tak. i'd go cliff diving :D

p/s : you'd have to read the book to understand why this post is posted like this. HAHAHA. have fun!

that tickles!

ahh. takde apa nak post sbnrnya. just wanted to update. so, i went out today. after what felt like eternity since the last time i was out (padahal baru sunday lepas keluar?) ahaha. lama lah tu. every day kena kurung je. haihh.

haa. speaking of keluar tadi. let me just letak kat sini the conversations yang i feel macam pelik and require the look of what-the-hell? when you come across something like it. and bukan time keluar je. time dah balik, kat rumah, pun ada. ahaha.

1st

tgh looking for a parking spot. and i spotted one.

Me : haa ni! park sini lah.

my mom pun try to move in while i feel proud sebab i found it :D

Mom : ishh. idk how to park like this lah. somebody help me.

Johan : ala, just do it lah. you can do it.

Jefri : yeah, just move, we'll help (tgk tgk space blkg kereta. takut langgar kereta org pulak kang)

Me : this is a good spot, Ma. tgk, dekat je dgn entrance. see, here's the entrance (pointing to pintu yg bukak automatically tu)

Mom : what entrance is that?

Me : (huh?) err. entrance to Pavilion?

Jefri : HAHAHAHA :r good one, kak.

Me : mama ni lah. what kind of question was that Ma?

Mom : (tgk side mirror, tgk gear. then, reverse)

haihh. apa la kelakar sgt mak aku ni. soalan tk masuk akal!

2nd

tgh makan doughnut at, kat mana lagi? kalau dah kat Pavilion tu, mesti lah J.Co! okay, the story is, i never like donuts. never! but entah mcm mana, felt like eating one today? gila kot? ahaha. so, makan lah. one! one je! hahaha. i know, ramai kat luar tu yang akan mcm "gila apa pegi J.Co makan satu je?" haha. mampus ah. duit kau ke? haa. so, this donut that i picked was one of those yg mcm ada filling tu. which was shit annoying.

Johan : eh kak, you buy this (my drink) ada dpt free donut kan?

Me : ohh. yeah? entah. ye kot.

Johan : ye. can i have it?

Me : you mean this? (the donut on the plate that was in my hand)

Johan : haa.

Me : uhh. no. i want this!

Johan : what? i thought you just wanna buy a drink.

Me : rightttt. because i would spent RM15 for you. *look at him up and down* now, take these bags and pegi cari tempat duduk (while i wait for my drink to siap)

Johan : *dissapointed look* (take bags and find a spot)

sekali tengok, kakak yg buat drinks tu bagi my beverage and a glazed donut.

J. Co Staff : nah, it's free

Me : ohh. what do you know? i do get one free.

Jefri : ohh. great. hey, nanti i wanna have some tau your drink tu.

Me : hmm. *looking for Johan. spotted him. offered him the glazed donut in signals. and he just nodded*

and then Jefri and I joined Johan with everything (the food and the beverage)

Me : look! i do get one free! :D (felt guilty sbnrnya)

Jefri : yeaaaaaa. so i can have that right?? (giddyly)

Me : no! it's Johan's!

Jefri pulak look dissaponted. adoi.

Me : but you can share la i guess. share la.

so, they shared la kot? tk perasan. because johan didn't look like he wasn't gonna share. i didn't notice sebab i was busy cleaning up after myself because the filling was dripping! ishhh. and people wonder why i hate donuts? hmm, idk. maybe because my eating skills was not cut out for eating filling-dripping-donuts??? haih.

3rd

my brothers were starting to study. for their last papers on monday nanti. so, bukak la buku geografi diorang.

Jefri : eh? who wrote "papa cute"? (pointing on his book)

Johan : (looks at where Jefri's pointing) you ah. kan you were talking about it.

Jefri : yeah, but i didn't write it. you did!

Me : (looking at both) *papa cute? what the hell?*

Johan : nooooo. you lah kot. it's your book.

Jefri : no! i don't write "A" like that. (dah mula dengan muka berkerut dia)

Johan : hmm. (malas nak layan)

Jefri : you ah did it.

Johan : fine, i did it (sarcastically. rolling his eyes) *mampus kau lah*

Me : *HAHA. bangang!*

a while after that.

Johan : kenapa it says "TIDAK BOLEH DIJUAL"? (reading the bottom of his textbook back cover)

Me : hey! baca jelah buku tu. orang suruh study laaaaaaa.

and the rest is the part where he.. well.. both of them.. got yelled at by my mom sebab make banyak sgt excuse bila nak study. HAHAHA. actually, rasa mcm my mom was addressing me too. but since i wasn't studying, didn't feel the burn sgt lah.

p/s : i know these are not really the things i wish i talk about out loud. but tk kisah ah. siapa kisah? angkat tangan.

haaa. tau pun tk kesah. dah, kau diam. nak baca, baca. tknk, tk payah. muahahaha.

cerita tempat kerja (Part V)

so, the next day. datang kerja. hari ni kak Aina memang takde. sebab hari ni memang dia punya off-day. so, i don't expect to see her. but. get this! ada a part of last night (last sequel laa. yg part IV tu), i didn't put in. haha. part tu agak penting laa. tapi terlupa. so.. ni la conversation tu. keep in mind. this conversation took place while i was cleaning up. and time tu, Henry pun memang dah ada, tgh tunggu.

Abg. Zain dtg ke kedai. dia duduk dekat jugak laa dengan tempat yang Henry duduk tu. so, maybe Henry pun dengar what we were talking about.

Abg. Zain : (datang ; duduk kat tempat dia selalu duduk, dekat dengan pintu staff) Dik, mana? kak Aina dah balik eh?

Me : hmm. ye. dia dah balik. (malas nak layan)

Abg. Zain : (angguk je ; muka blurr dah)

nak pulak dia tanya pasal tunang dia yang dia konon konon dah taknak tadi. hmmph! and then maybe he realized that i'm ignoring him. buat kerja mcm tk pandang dia pun semua, like i always do. haha, sebab selalunya i layan kann bila my friends datang. even if it's Abg. Zain and Abg. Sani. sesape lah. as long as i know them, mesti punya layan.

Abg. Zain : woh. sombongnyaa.

Me : (rolls eyes sambil tgh sapu sapu, lap lap) tkde lah. tadi tu.. abg. zain mcm ntah ah. menakutkan je.

Abg. Zain : ye ah, dik. dah orang buat salah kan, mesti ah kena marah. kan? kalau adik, adik tk marah?

Me : masalahnyaa dia dah mintak maaf kan? saya pun dah mintak maaf.

Abg. Zain : huh. tk boleh, dik. maaf je tk bermakna semua dah selesai, beres.

Me : so, maknanya betul lah?

Abg. Zain : (muka tak faham apa apa)

Me : Abg. Zain mmg dah tknk ah kat kak Aina? mcm tu je ah?

Abg. Zain : ehhh mana boleh. abg sayang dia tu.

Me : (relieved gila gila babi, tapi cover) habis tu? kenapa mcm tu tadi?

Abg. Zain : yelaa. tgh marah kann. bila kita marah kann, kita cakap benda benda yang kita tak maksudkan.

Me : (pause jap. teringat "we say things we don't mean when we're mad". siapa tah pernah cakap dulu) habis? mcm mana ni? Abg. Zain dah call dia?

Abg. Zain : abg dah call dah. dia tk angkat.

Me : (oh thank god!) hmm. dia pun tgh marah la tu kot. dia cakap ngan saya Abg. Zain dah tknk kat dia dah. mcm benci sgt dah.

Abg. Zain : ishh. tak akan lah. memang lah marah. tapi.. takkan la sampai mcmtu. cuba adik fikir, dah lama kitorang bersama. drpd kecik kecik dulu. tkkannya abg nak tinggalkan je dia mcmtu.

Me : (lega habis ah!) haa. bagus ah. call lah dia lagi.

and then after that, ada la benda lain yang kitorang cakap. but whole pointnya, benda ni dah almost settle. so that's why laa when going back with Henry tu, tkde la rasa mcm nak bunuh diri ke apa *whatthefuck?* HAHA. sebab dah mcm nampak that this thing will be okay kot?

alright, berbalik kepada today.

masuk la kerja mcm biasa. nampak orang lain pun terpaksa je ah tebalkan muka. tapi muka sedih tu still ada ah. eh, bukan. bukan muka sedih. more like pathetic? haa. muka camtu ah. mampus diorang ah nak cakap apa. dah tkde strength dah nak tahan. kalau diorang pandai, diorang senyap. however, kalau nak mintak penyepak, it was on SALE on that day. murah murah, senang senang je boleh dapat. but over all, okay lah kot? tak banyak pun yang cari pasal. and then tetiba time tgh hari tu. well, not tgh hari. a bit later laa. about 2 or 3. orang pun dah tak ramai. sbb lunch hour dah habis. i saw kak Aina. with Abg. Zain! datang to our kedai laa. they're not mad at each other anymore. dah okay la kot? they sat outside. tempat biasa "kitorang". so, staff lain (Zarul, kak Lynn and kak Rina) nampak diorang. semua mcm excited laa. tkde la excited but just mcm biasa ah, nak tegur lah apa semua enn. Zarul je tinggal kat dalam buat kerja. kak Rina and kak Lynn dah kat luar. from the look of it, i can tell that everything's fine. and there were laughters semua among them. i'm glad la things were fine. but still, what i had to go through the day before was memang macam babi ah. sumpah i felt used gila. masa kat sekolah pun tk pernah mcm ni. i was never perfect ke apa but tk pernah la cause this much trouble kot? sampai mcm ni punya hancur. i realized since i start working here je, baru lah macam macam tragedy menimpa diriku ini *whatever* sial ah semua! haha. geramm!

soon, semua dah kat luar. only me je kat dalam. buat kerja. yang lain dah dok melepak kat luar. which doesn't really bother me pun. sebab tk ramai customer pun. kalau ada pun, i could handle it. except for the paying part lah. but kak Lynn knows. everytime ada je orang, she'll be alert, because she knows i can't work the cash register. i don't know how and tak hingin pun nak tau. so, bila duit short ke apa, tkde la kena mengena ngan aku sebab i was nowhere near it :P haha. pandai tak? pandai kan. selamat je duit aku. orang lain semua kena bayar, and i'm not included. HAHAHA.

time time tgh buat kerja tu, kak Aina dtg depan jap, asking me to get some drinks.

Aina : Amelya, boleh tolong akak tak? :D

Me : haha, apa je laa akak ni.

Aina : tolong bagi air sikit kat akak.

Me : guna cawan staff ke nak beli ni?

Aina : cawan staff laa Amelyaaa.

Me : okay, jap. (pergi amek cawan staff) haa. nak air apa kak?

Aina : apa apa la. tu lah. bagi yangg..

(and then boleh dengar si Abg. Zain jerit "Sprite tuh!")

Aina : haa. kasi akak Sprite tu.

Me : :) nak ais?

Aina : ah, letak lah sikit.

and then i did laa what she said tu. serious i didn't feel like talking to anyone except kak Aina ni. haihh. later tu, kak Aina and Abg. Zain ajak me outside to join them. ada lah jugak 2, 3, 20 kali. haha. i realized they're doing that sebab they realized i feel guilty kot? but i didn't go out pun. tknak ah. facing all those talam dua muka tuh. buat cerita nak letop habis, macam kau bagus sangat! bukan Abg. Zain dgn kak Aina tu, but yang lain tu! and! to top it all off, kak Melati dengan her son-of-a-gun of a boyfriend, Rizal tu pun ada. pftt. memang harapan ah nak lepak luar tu dengan diorang. mati hidup balik pun aku tak sanggup. and then at that time, ada la ter-cross my mind "Henry, I wish you were here" wahaha. tk boleh blah. but serious laa. time tu mmg tak boleh fikir sape sape lagi dah yang boleh step in as a hero figure. sape lagi kan? Henry jelah yang paling appropiate time tu. dia tkde pulakk :(

but memang on that day. everything felt like shit lah. dah lah Henry tkde. so, mcm nak usha usha booth UNICEF tu pun, macam tkde point. nothing felt good langsung lah. and due to my moody mood, ada la ter-nangis jap. skejap je! takde orang nampak pun. sebab semua tgh sebok meraikan Kak Aina and Abg. Zain's get together tu kann. i was alone je kat dalam. konon rajin, tknk lepak kat luar mcm staff lain. haha. i bet that's what all they by-passers were thinking. dalam 4 orang yang pakai uniform DD tu, sorang je kat dalam. yang lain, makan minum apa semua kat luar. haha. at least, yang dapat nama baik, aku jugakkk :D padahal sebenarnya tkde la rajin mana pun, emo je. haha. and staff lain pun tk boleh nak cakap banyak. diorang tau diorang menempah maut je kalau banyak songeh. heh!

cerita tempat kerja (Part IV)

ehh. mcm banyak pulak sequels cerita ni? haha. whatever lah. okay so, cerita in Part III ended with we discussed about it. phew. okayy. dah settled? no, not really. big NO! haihh. nak jadi cerita, they didn't leave it off at a good end laa. mcm kira bermasam muka. tk forgive each other pun. lagi hate each other ada laa. sebab diorang ungkit ungkit kisah silam masa lalu. adoi. bila macam tu, yang lebih lebih terasa siapa? aku jugakkkkkkk. kiranyaa i'm laa the pembawa sial? sial betul lah. haha. tapi kak Aina was just mcm

Aina : tkpe lah Amelya. pegi je naik atas, sambung kerja.

Me : ala kakk. tapi benda ni mcm mana.

Aina : biar jelah dia. dia dah tknk kat akak kann.

Me : alaaaaaa. kakkkkkkk.

there was a lot more lah yang dia cakap. tak perlu lah nak tulis semua :) but semua benda yang dia cakap tu memang menambah je rasa guilty tu. yelahh kann. they're not making up? wtf? habis tu? i'm a whore lah? i'm officially a whore. officially a bitch. officially the bad one. ughh. so, i insisted on them going back to the "discussing". i don't wanna get up sampai lah diorang okay. but kak Aina insisted on me going up and continue my kerja. sebab dia pun nak balik, Abg. Zain pun tgh panas, tknk layan dia. so, at that time, mcm tkde choice. i Had to go back up there, sedih mcm mana pun, malu mcm mana pun, geram mcm mana pun. terpaksa je laa harungi segalanyaa. *whaaaaa?*

so, bila naik atas. nampak la kak Rina. dengan boyfriend dia yang also kawan Abg. Zain, Abg. Sani. they both saw me laa. muka dah basah mcm apa. mata dah merah macam apa. haihh. time tu dah tak fikir dah pasal malu ke apa. dah tak fikir dah "hodoh ke mcmni? nak kena pegi toilet ni" HAHAHA. dah tk fikir dah. penat je ke sana, ke sini nak betulkan keadaan. tk jugak betul betul keadaan ni. duduk jap kat meja luar dengan kak Aina.

Me : sorry la kak (sobbing)

Aina : tkpe laa. nak buat mcm mana. akak pun tk salahkan sesape. tu laa. akak cuma salahkan Abg. Zain je.

Me : tak. sebenarnyaa kalau akak nak salahkan saya pun, saya faham.

(Zarul joins in)

Zarul : (pandang Aina, pandang Me) tak, benda ni kenapa sbnrnya? aku tak faham ah. kau buat apa Amelya?

Me : tkde apa ah (malas nak layan)

Aina : akak risau Zarul ni je tau. takut nanti Abg. Zain buat apa apa.

Me : (rolling eyes at Zarul)

Zarul : haa? saya? asal lak saya kak?

Me : haaa. kau tktau. benda ni padahal ada kena mengena ngan kau jugakk.

Zarul : ehh. aku awal awal dah cakap aku tknk masuk campur.

Me : dah memang tercampur dah pun -_-

Zarul : asal lak?

Me : sebab kononnyaa kak Aina ni nak sangat masuk shift pagi ngan kau. nak opening ngan kau.

Zarul : (muka terkejut + tak percaya) Abg. Zain pikir camtu? huh. tk pasal je.

Aina : tu la akak pun risau.

Zarul : alaa. apa dia boleh buat?

Me : (aku cepuk jugak mamat ni kang)

and then, after a while. semua yang dah habis shift ni, beransur pulang. yang Rina pulak, dengan Abg. Sani pun nak balik. kak Rina memang tk kerja, but she always come anyways, in the evening. yelah kann. Supervisor. kena lah konon konon datang check jugak. how everything's going. Abg. Sani tu sempat lah jugak comfort me sebelum dia balik. well, not so much comforting. just mcm cakap "benda ni ujian Allah" and stuff like that, and i have to be strong and shit like that. HAHA. no, not shit. it was good. thanks Abg. Sani :)

that chinese dude pun ada lg kat situ. diorang closing at 8. sama la macam us. so, i got in. sambung kerja. time tu tinggal me and kak Lynn je. who was supposedly the best one there. sumpah i thought she'd have my back on this one. well, tkde la support me ke apa. but i thought she's the one yang macam Abg. Sani tadi. she's always been nice and warm anyway. i was wrong lah i guess. dia tkde la cakap banyak mana but still. dia ada macam marah :(

so, the whole time buat kerja tu. senyap jelah. tapi dia ada la cakap. like "dik, tutup air lah" or "dik, tutup sandwich lah" and "awak nak basuh ke clear kat depan?" semua tu i responded mcm tknk respond je. setakat angguk geleng je. HAHA. tgh emo habis lah time tu. and there's this time. she went off. pegi mana tah. toilet kot? and i was infront of the coffee maker tu. tgh lap lap. muka still mcm sedih gila. mata still merah. and then!! ahahaha. that chinese dude came to me. well, from luar jelah.

Chinese Dude : hey. are you okay?

Me : *terkejut* (macam mana dia boleh nampak aku celah celah coffee ni?) uhh. yeah, yeah. i'm fine. *and then i realize i'm lying* actually no. not really

Chinese Dude : yeah, i can tell. what happened actually?

so, cerita lah kat dia ni about what happened. baru start sikit, dah meleleh. aduhhhh. sumpah malu gilaa. dah la dia ni cute apa semua, sesekali dapat bercakap ngan dia, meleleh leleh lah pulak. mesti muka buruk habis ah. sialan betul. haihh. kenapa la lemah sgt emotions aku ni. HAHAHAHA.

Chinese Dude : they shouldn't do that. i mean. it's not your fault. you shouldn't be the blame.

Me : (wahhh. walaupun aku tau kau tipu, you still get points for trying to make me feel better :D ) uhh. thanks? (tried to smile)

Chinese Dude : yeah, sure :) you looked like you needed a shoulder.

Me : haha. i really do!

Chinese Dude : well, i'm here :p

Me : ahaha. thanks. ( ada jugak hikmahnyaa benda ni berlaku. HAHAHA)

and then, sambung la kerja. tgh tgh kerja tu, i realized UNICEF punya booth tu pun closing. and the other malay guy tu pun macam jenguk jenguk over here. making signals to me, asking if i'm okay. i bagi thumbs up je. ahaha. ada jugak orang still care. biar lah orang lain cari pasal, at least orang UNICEF tu ada lagi for me. HAHAHA. gila ah tak boleh blah emo. so then, they're all done. the UNICEF tu lah. and then the chinese dude tu mcm linger around. i wonder why. but buat bodoh jelah. and then dia mcm dtg jenguk from the tiny staff door. and he made some signals yang sumpah i didn't get. so i went out

Me : what?

Chinese Dude : do you want me to wait? accompany you?

Me : (wahhhh. bestnyaaa) uhh, sure. if you're okay with it?

Chinese Dude : i live alone anyway, no one's waiting. so, i don't mind.

Me : okay :) (padahal kalau boleh nak lompat tinggi tinggi)

and i continued kerja lah. sapu lah apa semua. cleaning up kann. donuts dah settle. tadi bagi all the leftovers to the malay UNICEF guy. haha. he waited. the chinese dude tknk. and then kak Lynn cakap tonight pest control nak datang. so, kena tunggu lambat sikit. adoi. like as if i need pulak a reason nak tunggu lama lama kat sini after what happened. nasib baik ada this guy. so, sambil sambil tunggu tu, sambil sambil buat kerja tu. i went out lah kejap. talked to him

Me : you sure you want to wait? it's gonna be a while because the pest control is coming. apprently.

Chinese Dude : yeah, yeah, sure. i don't mind. (smoking)

Me : (terkejut gila babi) wait. you smoke?

Chinese Dude : uhh, isn't it obvious? (while smiling his cute smile tu. adoi. cair ah. HAHAHA)

Me : well, yeah. i noticed the skinnyness and all but idk, i just never thought of that.

Chinese Dude : well, i do :D

Me : ahah. okayy. hey, i don't even know your name.

Chinese Dude : it's Henry. here (showing his ID tag)

Me : ohh. cool, Henry :)

Chinese Dude : you're Amelya :)

Me : that's me :)

wahh. comelnyaa dia ni. sumpah tk tahan. lepas tu sanggup pulak tu tunggu. hahaha. and then after a while. everything's done. kak Lynn is still inside. doing what, i d k and i d c. last last, i just asked if i can just go back first. i mean, i'm done pun. and it's not like there's any reason for me to lepak there longer walaupun tkde kerja. like what i always do. yelah, usually tunggu la diorang. eventhough sbnrnya last last nanti, i'm the one left alone sbb diorang semua ada gang. like for example, i usually tunggu kak Lynn habis, padahal, dia dah habis nanti, dia balik dgn her sister, kak Melati tu. and if i was waiting for kak Rina, last last she'll be going with Abg. Sani, her beloved boyfriend tu, sebab they would go have dinner together or whatever. secara konklusinya, memang i'll be left alone pun if i wait for them. which i never minded. damn. i gotta stop putting friends first before myself. anyway, she said sure, i can go first. hmm. apa lagi? me and the chinese dude pun gerak laa.

Henry : how do you go back?

Me : (tktau nak jawab apa. hopefully he has a car. so i can get a ride. but terpaksa lah jawab jugak the truth) uhh. train, i guess?

Henry : ohh okay.

Me : (lerr. tu je? where's your car dude?) how bout you?

Henry : by train too :)

Me : ohh okayy :) (at least i'm still with you. mintak mintak lah route sama)

sebelum balik tu, sempat lagi i grab some drinks. air apa tah. 7Up kot? so, while walking with Henry tu, i offered. but he didn't want it. and bila sampai kat bawah tu, i told him nak pegi toilet jap. and he, mcm biasa la, cakap "sure" dgn dia punya smile tu. HAHA. and he offered to hold my drink tu. after i was out (dah bersih dah muka. tk nampak gloomy dah. haha), i just took lah the drink from him. and mcm terus minum.

Henry : oh wow. you actually drank it :)

Me : uhh. are you trying to scare me or what?

Henry : hahaha. i knew i scared you. no no. i meant that was good. you didn't even doubt me. you trust me?

Me : err. should i not? 'cause i'm having doubts now. haha.

Henry : no no. 'course not. i didn't do anything. it just meant a lot. you trusted me. you didn't even think about it. you drank it right away.

Me : okayyy. now you're really scaring me. haha.

Henry : haha. i'm sorry. really sorry.

and then, kebetulan, conveniently, tengah jalan jalan tu, ada tong sampah. and the drink was suck-ish anyway. i mean i'm not a big fan laa of carbonated drinks but kalau carbonated drinks dah tak carbonated, what the hell? so, i threw it in the tong sampah

Henry : haha. now, you throw it away.

Me : you scared me. plus, it's not good anymore.

Henry : okay :)

and then, dah sampai at the train station. he asked my destination. i asked his. and thank god! same route :D but i have to get off first. so, in the train..

Henry : so, are you okay now?

Me : haha. not entirely. that was dramatic huh?

Henry : yeah, they really shouldn't have put all that on you.

Me : whatever. i'm just glad this friday is my last day.

Henry : ohh?

Me : yeah, my contract is supposed to end on friday. i can prolong it if i want. my supervisor is willing to do the paperwork. but..

Henry : after today? haha.

Me : hahaha. no wayyyy i'm staying there.

Henry : i thought so too :)

Me : haha. yeah. so, last day this friday. woohoo. just three more days to go :D

Henry : ohh yeah. but i won't be here tomorrow.

Me : ohh? how come?

Henry : because i'm trading with that malay guy just now. the one who took all your donuts.

Me : mhmm

Henry : yeah well, he's under me.

Me : ?? like a protege?

Henry : yeah, somewhat so. and so, i want us to be seperated. i wanna see how he does without me around.

Me : ohh.

Henry : so, he'll be here tomorrow. and i'll be somewhere else. and i'll evaluate him by how much approach he succeeded at the end of the day.

Me : ohh okayyy. but, why can't you send him somewhere else and you stay here? (bapak laaa. mmg tk cover langsung yang memang sebenarnya dah minat kat dia. HAHA)

Henry : ohh. because i'm already assigned somewhere else anyway. for tommorow. so yeah :)

Me : but.. then.. i wouldn't have a shoulder to cry on (apa ke bodoh sgt ayat aku ni? adoi.)

Henry : well :) maybe i'll be here on Thursday

Me : ahaha. okay. it's fine. you need to do what you have to do. i get it.

Henry : :)

and then it was my stop. so, we said our goodbyes. and i said thanks and dah. keluar je. lepas tu, time tgh tunggu train STAR, haha, of course la kannn. teringat je kat chinese dude tu. after all the shit that happened. actually tonight ended pretty well. and i wouldn't want it any other way :L

haha. macam angau lah pulak dahhhh.

cerita tempat kerja (Part III)

alright. so, haritu sampai kat part mana? haha. bangang je. okay, so technically, i already mcm ruin a relationship of an engaged couple. which is sooooooooooo over-rated. i mean come on lah! i'm barely 18. and i'm already causing this much trouble. aku yang pembawa sial or diorang ni yang terlebih lebih drama? aduh. okay, jom jom. sambung balik.

Melati : (jenguk dekat tempat cashier yang kecik tu je) hey. apa jadi kat sini ni? Amelya, what have you did?

Me : (eh? mcm salah je dia cakap tu? ahh, mampus lah) tkde kak. it's just mcm a misunderstanding ni.

Melati : apa yang misunderstandingnyaa? apa? apa yang you buat Amelya?

Me : tak. macam ada miscommunication and sebab tu ada misunderstanding (sobbing)

Melati : sebab you kan Amelya.. sorry la akak cakap ehh.. semua ni salah you. and you tk boleh keep blaming orang lain. macam you perasan tak, bila ada benda you buat salah je, mesti you salahkan orang lain. kak Lynn lah apa semua. cuba you fikir balik. betul tak salah you? take responsibility laa.

Me : (wahhh. OUCH! sumpah sakit hati. so, kira korang semua dah dendam lama ahh?)

Melati : macam yang pasal Abg. Rizal tu. cuba Amelya fikir ehh. kalau akak ikut je cakap Amelya. akak punya trust in boyfriend akak ni tk kuat, apa akan jadi? mesti akak dah break kan? tapi tak. akak kenal dia. akak percaya dia. tapi kalau akak ikut je cakap Amelya mcm mana? kalau akak break dgn dia mcm mana? Amelya happy mcmtu?

Me : takkk. saya tkde pun niat mcmtu. saya bgtau akak pun sebab saya nak akak work it out dengan dia. apa decision akak tu, akak punya choice lah. tapi, saya cuma nak bgtau akak je. saya tknk ada secrets apa apa between us.

lepas tu, i felt like i had no more time and energy to gaduh with this bitch about this. i mean. okay, maybe korang confused kat sini. but the day before, i told kak Melati. i came clean to her laa. sebab that time kan closing. so, lepas closing tu, i went lepak-ing kat kedai dia jap. sebab kak Lynn pun balik dengan kak Melati kann. so, tgh duduk duduk lepak tu. i told her laa what her boyfriend did. sorry laa. but i suck in "what he/she doesn't know won't hurt him/her" tu. i can't okay! i can't do it. i had to tell her. once i get it off my chest tu, baru lah mcm lega. and of course she didn't take it well. i mean dia tkde la mengamuk but i can tell she didn't like it. but what else should i do? buat bodoh je? kak Melati ni my friend, and her boyfriend hitting on me mcmtu is supposed to be okay? aduhh. sorry la. i had to tell her. and she fired back?! she fired back to me after i told her about it?! memang kau cari pasal la wehh. sumpah panas je time dia cakap tu.

Me : (tearing up mcm apa dah) jom la kak. turun bawah jap. cakap dengan Abg. Zain. kita cakap la betul betul selesaikan semua ni.

Aina : Amelya dah turun tadi kan? Dah cakap kan? Dia cakap apa? (nangis jugak -_-)

Me : yelahh. memang la dahh. tapi kita turun la lagi sekali. this time, akak pun ada. cepat lah, jom.

so, after dah pujuk pujuk tu. i managed to talk her into it. so, we went down. waktu nak turun, kat escalator tu, lalu lah kat depan this booth. it's UNICEF punya booth. they've been having a promo there for quite a while kat depan kedai kitorang tuh. and so, the UNICEF people and me dah mcm kamcing ah pulakk. haha. tkde lah kamcing but tegur la everyday. and sometimes when i'm out in the front, tgh promote donuts, or cookies ke apa apa, diorang pun curi curi ngap satu, dua. and i don't mind. kawan kannn. haha. and the leader of their team tu liked me. she gave me her card lah apa semua. she thought i should joined them. i was interested but my mom macam thinks it's a scam and she thinks i should just stick to one job at a time. haihh. but this UNICEF thing has waaaaayyyyy more perks. according to this lady ni lah (the leader tu). andddd! there's this one chinese dude, one of the UNICEF people, sumpah cute! comel gila. as in cute laa. not comel as in baby-ish. cute as in.. hmm.. well, mcm ni jelah. Yes, I was attracted to him. haha. tk boleh blah. and he's fluent in English and BM. yelahh kann. dah kerja mcm tu. and get this! he thinks i'm cute too! wahhh. he wanted to ajak me to dinner for Valentine's but his boss, or colleague, yang leader tu macam hint hint kat dia yang i'm too young for him. so, tk jadi. ciss! HAHA. okay well, waktu nak turun escalator tu, lalu lah dekat dengan UNICEF punya booth tu. this chinese guy saw me with tears. dari tadi dah nampak. dari tadi dia mcm "heyyy, what happened here" to semua orang. but semua macam ignored him. haha. so did i. so, nak turun tu pun, dia tanya lagi sekali. sekali lagi jugak i ignored him. kau memang cute tapi sabar jap, biar aku settle kan ni dulu :D

so bila dah turun tu, we discussed la benda tu. tiga orang. i don't understand a single thing yang diorang cakap, well, actually quarelled about sebab they were talking in Kelantan punya slang? haha. tergeliat lidah nak cakap. nak faham pun susah. so, biar jelah diorang. dah la time tu dekat parking lot. orang dalam kereta semua lalu pandang semacam je "ada shooting drama ke?" hahaha. bodoh!

akhirnyaaaaa!

haha. akhirnyaa. dapat jugak buku New Moon tu. thanks to Serene Nazari ehh :)

Serene, if you're reading, terima kasih banyak banyak :D

that's all there is lah to this post. tkde benda pun nak cakap. well, waktu dapat buku tu haritu, memang super excited gila babi laa. terus bukak baca, tk ingat dah benda lain. lepas tu kena pause jap, pegi buat apa tah. and then now, macam slow je. tak laju macam Twilight dulu. haha. maybe sebab dulu kena study for SPM kot? hahaha. so mcm "chemistry ke Twilight?" HAHA. Twilight laa kan. lepastu result keluar mcm apa je. haihhh. sesal dahulu pendapatan, sesal kemudian? *apa ni?*

whatever la. dah tk reti nak ber-peribahasa, nak jugak buat -_-

alright then, ciao!