realize

in this past couple of months.. i've finally come to my senses and realized.. that i'm not ready to be in a relationship. ahh, bite me. and it's such a pain to know that i had to hurt someone to realized that. maybe la, i'm not sure if i got someone hurt or not.

and also, i've discovered that i'm not a girlfriend-material kind of girl. haha. yes i know, i'm a flirt. well, most of the time i am. but come on, let's get real. i'm not what most guys would want in a realtionship. alright, sampai situ je nak cakap. tak perlu elaborate lebih lebih kot.

I'm just a better friend than i am a girlfriend. so, when i'm friends with guys, they might find me easy to get along with. or easy to talk with or whatever. but when i'm The Girlfriend, oh shit, the grenade just dropped!

idk, maybe it's just me. i'd get all nervous and uncomfortable about it and ended up screwing everything up. and for that, i apologize in advance to u guys. (u guys should know who u are). and also, i apologize to those who felt like u've been played or cheated or taken-advantage-of in the past. i sincerely didn't mean to hurt any of u guys. and i believe u guys deserve better.

*so, please. no grudges needed to be held. past is past. let it just be another by-gone and go back to being friends. (sigh). as much as i hate it, i understand if it's hard for u to let this go and get back to being friends. fine, i ain't pushing myself on u. i just hope u'll frogive me someday. and thank you for everything.