on your way out

it's sad.

yeah, very sad. when the one you trusted, the
one you shared everything with, the one you thought would always have your back
finally turn around and spike you from faaaaarr.

i told you everything about everyone. everytime i have a problem with anything or anyone, even the slightest bit of wrong in my day pun i would tell you. because like i've said before.. you always have a way to make me feel better. rasa-rasanya, kalau langit tu finally jatuh, runtuh atas muka bumi ni pun, kau still boleh buat benda-benda or cakap benda-benda yg would sound like everything's gonna be okay. you always have a way to make me feel secured. safe. i was safe as long as i got you. and then, kau cakap.. selagi kau bernafas, kau takkan tinggalkan aku.

but now, you're the one who ruin it. now, i wish i have another you so that i can call him/her up and tell him/her about you, about how you made me cry. aku tak sangka kita akan jadi mcmni. betul betul tak sangka. kau lah satu-satunya yg aku rasa takkan ever, EVER dissapoint me or let me down. tapi aku salah anggap kot. betul lah orang cakap, sebaik mana pun kawan, mesti dia akan buat kita nangis jugak. takpelah, aku pun tak salahkan kau sehabis-habisnya. part of it, was my fault jugak kan? seperti yg telah kau nyatakan.

cuma.. aku tak pernah sangka yg we will go this way. dah, aku pun taknak elaborate apa yg aku expect from our friendship ni. honest to God, i had plans about us. i thought we could go further. but you've hurt me so bad this time. aku tak rasa aku pernah rasa seteruk ni. betul lah org cakap, kena tibai byk kali mcm mana pun, konon dah biasa, dah tak sakit. tapi bila org yg kita tak pernah sangka boleh buat kita nangis finally buat kita nangis, perghhh. dalam gila la terasa pedihnya.

apa-apa pun, take good care of yourself, buddy. i will miss having you in my life.