petrified

it's finally over. the waiting, the pain and all. fuhhh. alhamdulillah, everything's done now.


i've finally graduated from that jail about a month ago and yesterday, the results were out. and thank god, i passed. homg! it's about time! now, i can spend every living moment of my holiday ni with joy and real feeling of freedom. no need to worry about anything so much. haha.


happynyaaaa. i hope it stays this way lah. i still remember, when i was crying so hard and insisted on not going there in the first place.. a friend of mine, MZHbAB was telling me that i should be strong and just do it. and he said this would just take a while and after that, everything will be happy endings for me. at that crucial time, his words were a bit soothing and as time passes by, i keep thinking of what he said and i wish he's right.


i hope.. after all the shits i've been put through, there really will be happy endings for me on the other side. i hope all the bad encounters that i had are worthwhile. damn, last year was such a blow, i'm really glad it's over.


alright. so, now. let's focus on what's coming pulak. but imma take it slow coz i still have some time to kill before i kill myself again in a brand new place later. apa apa pun, as for right now, i'm glad :)

ciao!

stealing a bit of time

haaa. last 2 weeks, i went out of my college (kat dpn tu je, tkde lah out mana) and had lunch with my friends. 2 different friends on 2 different days. walaumacammanapun, it was joined by AHbAA on both occassions -.-"
takpe, i haven't seen him in a while anyway.


so, thanks to MZHbAB for coming down here all the way from Kedah just to spend something like 4 hours or so with me. we talked and talked, and updated each other and last2 decided to eat. and the chocolate bar! heeee. Thank You so much.


okay, so that was last, last weekend. yesterday pulak, all of us (my classmates and i, minus 2 boys though) went to K. Perlis for dinner. it was something like our last dinner together. mcm lah sebelum ni we've had dinners together =___=
but overall, it was nice. the food lah was nice. i just liked the fact that we were able to spend some time OUT of this jail, and it was sea-side which makes it even more soothing for this sore soul of mine. and it ended with indulging in great food which contributes to the all-greatness factor. err.. the food was probably great because i was greatly-starving? okay, takpe. nevermind that. big point is, i got to enjoy the seafood without any allergy reaction coming up on me AND! i got some chocolate-covered strawberries :DD, thanks to FNIbMZ


so, cerita utk meng-update dah habis. so, i'm gonna stop here. sebaabb quite frankly, i'm out of things to write and lagipun, it's hard to get any ilham when you have to update your blog in "Bilik Siber" in your college's library. being sandwiched between other people who's using this Bilik Siber too? really? memang lah aku selesa nak update blog selalu kat sini. yg bebudak sebelah ni, peep sini, peep sana. haishh.




ciao!

renewed

hahaha. i actually did go out of this place tadi. bukan outing sgt pun. tgh tension2 sorang2 dalam bilik pagi2 tadi. all of a sudden, one of my friend, AAbA, who used to be so close to me.. but then kitorang mcm ada gaduh sikit kot? takde lah gaduh, but just tak bertegur for a while sebab ada misunderstanding. tiba2 he msged and asked if i want to go out and hang.


whoa?


dgn hairannya, i asked balik.. dia boleh ke outing? it's the girls' weekend. he said he already asked permission because he thought his dad was coming but tak jadi. so, he got a permission to go out and free to use it. so i thought, why not kan? dah la bosan, tension, stressed, sedih lagi dlm bilik tu. so, apa lagi. i got up and get ready and went out. we went for lunch just now and his dad called him. tetiba jadi pulak nak dtg visit him.


so, after lunch, we talked for a while. borak2 jap. yelah, lama tak sembang. so we updated each other while waiting for his dad. and terjumpa jugak dgn AHbAA while we're out tadi. so, i met both of my friends yg dulunya memang rapat gila with me. sukanyaaaa. haha. and then, when his dad was nearby, i go back to college. and singgah here, the library. haha. and updated my blog ni :)


and lepas ni pulak, my other friend yg memang planned nak visit me is coming. haha. jumpa my other friend pulak, MZHbAB. i should probably go back to my room and get myself ready. haha.

ciao!

sore soul

ohh how i love this. i love fridays. thank god for fridays. and thank you to all my lecturers for not having any extra classes this afternoon. i'm completely freeeeeeeeeeeeee :D


HAHA. happynyaa. it feels like forever since the last time i have a friday like this. where i'm free to do anything i want. i can sleep all the way to the night time. i can go eat. i can go play. i can update this freakin blog of mine. and macam macam lagi. siap sempat tgk movie lagi tadi. heh. i watched Pisau Cukur just now. and it was only because i was browsing through my friend's lappy ni and so i browsed at the movies she have. and she has some korean bits that i obviously wouldn't touch because i'm not one of those korea-maniacs. and then she has some twilights that i obviously already watch, so Pisau Cukur lah jadi pilihan hati. ngahaha.


err, i'm actually supposed to be home by now. or at least on my way home. i planned to go back this weekend. i know it's only a normal 2-day weekend but it's the last week for us to go back, and then i miss home like crazy. but due to financial crisis and also, my dad said that it wasn't worth it because it's only for a day and a half that i'd be home, i decided that i'm not going home :(


it's sad, really sad.


but! on the plus side.. a friend of mine planned to come down here to visit :D
it's been a while since the last time i saw his face, so this is pretty exciting. this visit was supposed to be accompanied by another friend of mine. but she couldn't make it due to some family reasons. haihhhh. rindu lah kat kau Yanaaa. malangnya, kau tak boleh nak show up. tapi takpe lah, family's first :)


so, there you go. after a week full of quizzes and a test. i'm finally wound up here on a free friday. totally free. and i can feel my muscles aching and my bones cracking everywhere. ughhh. i thought last week was the last of it. but nope. minggu lepas presentations and assignments. this week, quizzes and tests. minggu depan apa pulak? bak datang la wehhh. tak takut :P


bottom line is, i'm glad the weekend is here. and kalau jadi, i'll go out. but most probably takkan kot. takkan lah i wanna go out alone. my friends yang ada pun dah balik rumah diorang. haihh. but takpe, weekend sorang pun alright je ;)

till next time, ciao.

constant target

yes! finally! all presentation shits are done :D
i hate doing presentations in front of the class. tak kisah la for what subject. even if i'm confident about what i present, or if it's just a simple analysis that i need to share with the whole class or just something yang memang aku tak faham sepatah haram pun, i DON'T like it.
tapi nasib baik lah dah habis dah segala mcm bala yg ada nih. so, now tinggal nak study study jelah. and assignments pun makin menimbun jugak. alahai. mati lahhh.
woihhh. cepat lah habis. aku nak balik rumah laa. tak tahan duduk sini. nak balik. and for those who knows me well, you would know that i'm not so much a person who gets home-sick constantly tapi this year kat sini memang sumpah la menyeksakan yang teramat. i wanna go home. i wanna finish my session here secepat mungkin.
haihh. dah laa. malas betul nak layan lara hati ni. redha jelah stuck kat sini sampai mati. HAHA, over-dramtic jap.
okay lah. kang tulis lagi panjang, lagi byk merapu pulak.



ciao!

takde motif

wehh. i hate it here. too many assignments and other shit in so little time. people keep telling me to hold on, 2 bulan je lagi. pehh. 2 bulan? 2 bulan tu kira lama lah kat sini. memang lah pejam celik je dah habis. tapi sementara nak tunggu tu, hadoyyyy.




ni pun actually online sebab tgh nak cari info about a cat. haha. esok ada public speaking. eh jap, tak, bukan. ada pengucapan awam. dah tajuk bebas ni kan, apa kata buat tajuk yg mengarut sikit. like this cat named Oscar.

haa. si Oscar ni org panggil dia The Death Cat. sebab dia somehow boleh tau bila orang nak mati. okay tak, bukan mcmtu. tu mcm tahyul sgt. tah la. korang pegi la Google sendiri psl kucing ni. dah lama dah tau psl dia ni. tapi baru sekarang nak betul2 research. haha. entah2 kucing ni pun dah takde dah.

okay dah. sorry post kali ni agak boring. bnyk benda nak cakap actually tapi takde masa. so, gotta go now. nak buat assignment2 bengong ni.

:-)

pregged up?

It amazes me how after living with them for almost 20 years, my family can still suprise me with the things they do or say. Okay well, I've only lived with my brothers for 15 years but still. Like yesterday.. we went out. And as usual, kalau jalan kat KL ni, ada je lah free stuff, or the people who are trying to promote something on the sidewalks.


So, yesterday, ada la one lady gave some kind of poster to my youngest brother. He took it without even looking at her face and mumbled "thanks".


None of us cared about it. So, he just shoved it in a bag and we just moved on with our day. Then at home.. we were checking all the stuff we bought and apparently, the stuff we got. And then, my brother found the poster thing and looked confused.. he went and ask my mom

"Eh ma, ni nak buat apa? kakak dah pregnant ke?"

Ya Allah! Gila ke apa adik aku ni. It turns out, the poster was one of those things that you can lekat on the window of your car.. and it says "Baby On Board"

At that time, I was in the kitchen with my mom and he came in with that thing. I gave him a good slap and he laughed and mom made the best "what-is-wrong-with-you-people?" face.