nak ke tak nak?

okay. i know this is a bad habit of mine, but i don't usually tegur people that i know. hmmm. yeah, i know, bad isn't it? and some, well.. most people would quickly put that as sombong which i believe i really am not. it's just that.. idk. i guess when people i know don't tegur me first, it means they don't wanna talk to me. so, why should i right? ughh. yes, i know. that sounded selfish too but cuba fikir balik. because i don't really like being with someone who doesn't want to be with me. hmm. it's like forcing myself on them. and i don't like doing that. because i know for sure, i never ignore people. when someone tegur me, i always respond. kenal tak kenal, respond jugak tau. dah macam tu, orang cakap gedik pulak. yelaa, some people and by some people, i'm emphasizing on my mom. hee. see, she would say i'm gedik or cheap or whatever if i respond to someone i don't know. okay, let's get her out of this. she's not involved. but yeah.. i mean i'm just like that. i don't think i'm sombong ke pape because i usually talk even to the people i just got to know. like okay.. i'll give you some scenes ehh.

scene 1

X : lama siott tunggu youu.

Me : yelah sorry. i'm here now (grinning)

X : oh btw, this is my friend, Y. dia lah jadi driver kita today.

Me : oh okay, hi Y (smiling ; smiling tuhh)

Y : so, you're Mia?

Me : yup (smiling)

okay, nampak? seeee? i'm not sombong. i'll just talk lah to Y. apa salahnyaa. i mean of course this shows nothing but it'll flow well if Y wants it to flow well. but if Y looks like he's keeping a distance or mcm taknak be friends. then, what am i to do? i'll just let him la.

okay, moving on.

scene 2

X : (otp) cepat lah, i dgn kawan i ni.

Me : (otp) okay okay, dah sampai ni.

X : haaa. there you are. oh, ni kawan i, Y.

Me : hi (smiling)

Y : (smiling)

Me : (lerr, nak cakap hi pun susah. hmmph!)

Y : eh X, cepat lah gerak jom. kang lambat.

X : alright, jom jom.

haaa. seee? two completely different scenes. i tried okay? fine laa. it's not much of an effort but still. i spoke AND smile. dia? smile je. haihh. yes, i understand some people are shy, pemalu and whatnot. but seriously, evil sgt ke muka aku ni? tak makan orang laa. ada muka macam aku nak bajet hot ke pape? dah orang cakap hi pun, takut sangat.

lepas tu!

yang paling geramnyaaa. ada pulak yang berani mengadu kat kawan cakap "eh kawan kau tu tadi tak suka aku ke? macam menyampah je tadi." lerr. kau yang jual mahal. aku tarik diri lah. ishh. macam macam. lepas tu, kalau yang ada myspace pulak, dgn poyonyaa, "eh u, sori lh tadi x ckp bnyk. i ni pemalu orgnye" ya allah. tolong laa!

so, konklusinya ialah, i don't mix well with the shy ones. ahaha. unless the shy ones are the cute ones ;p

haha. tkde laa. i mean, i have my limits jgk. i am a pemalu as well but i guess when the ice is broken, i'm not so much of a pemalu anymore. because i talk. A LOT. haha. it's like i live to talk. so.. yeah. but ntah la. i guess i don't really have problems with the shy ones. it's better like that than the over-friendly ones. although i ignore it when people say i'm sombong. because i know i'm not. and if you feel like i am even after you've tegur me. then, maybe i just don't like you. hehe. but! i rarely do that. in fact, i can't actually count the people that i ignore on purpose with my fingers. ahaha.

ya allah. penat. haha. penat tulis panjang panjang to blab on about how people are to me. sighh. tkpe. at least, now everything's out. do i feel better? tak kot? haha. whatever. okay, gonna go now. i'll write again when i have more to complaint or talk about. and things to talk about is plenty! ahaha, ciao.